Monday, December 29, 2003

how can two people in love hurt each other so much?
how can two people in love be so different?
how can two people in love not know each other?
how can two people in love be strangers?

you learn a lot when you see
you learn a lot when you hear
you learn a lot when you take time to observe
you learn a lot when you experience

life is full of its ups and downs
sometimes i can never understand why some things happen
but things happen for a reason dont they
you can never predict life

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life
does go on, and it will be better tomorrow

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she
handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and their exam results.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents,
you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on
both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you. But if you
focus on your family,your friends, the needs of others,
your work and doing the very best you can, happiness will find you.

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart,
I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love that human touch -- holding hands, a warm hug, or just a
friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn...

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12/29/2003 07:20:00 PM
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death
a word feared by most
death
something everyone will face
maybe now maybe later
death
comes without warning
comes in any form
should you fear it?
should you embrace it?

would you be prepared for it?
if it was your time tomorrow
what would you do?
would you have any regrets?
would you turn back time?
to undo the past?
to right what's wrong?
to tell your loved ones of your love for them?
would you leave the world willingly?

Is it true?
that your life flashes before your eyes when you are about to die?
Would you be scared?
Would you cry?
of past mistakes?
of pain?

Have you ever wondered?
what it would feel like?
the difficulty in breathing
painfully gasping for your last breath
when everything turns pitch black
the sharp pain in your heart
the submission to darkness...

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12/29/2003 01:46:00 AM
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the night air
so sweet and cool
the moon full and bright
watching over the ones at peace
watching over the ones in turmoil
the urge to be swept away
by the night air
so cool
so sweet...

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12/29/2003 12:19:00 AM
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Sunday, December 28, 2003

shocked by your actions and words
a ploy to obtain my trust
bound by ties and blood
you forsake the ties that bind
all of you are just the same
i lost my faith in you
no matter what you'll say
to me there'll be no truth
it hurts when you hurt them
how cruel can you get?
dad may not be with us anymore
it doesnt mean we are weak
what have we done to you?
to be treated this way?

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12/28/2003 09:33:00 PM
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Soar

When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

So what you waiting for
Don't wait, Don't wait
Soar

by christina aguilera

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12/28/2003 07:49:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 24, 2003

You're Skittles!!! You have a very interesting
personality, you're so unique. You're the kind
of person who always thinks outside of the box.
You're also a very accepting individual, and
believe in inner beauty.

Which kind of candy are you?
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12/24/2003 01:00:00 PM
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Didn't go out today so nothing much happened. My aunt's family came today for a visit. Was sitting with them at the dining table went suddenly my uncle suggested going to Johor to see an old uncle of theirs so we wld be going there during Christmas. The original plan was to go on a friday then i suddenly remembered that the xmas party is on Saturday so that's why they are pushing it to thursday, so we'll be back on friday.. Truth be told i'm excited to go on this trip cause i wanna get away from my usual surroundings for a tad, doesnt matter even if it is just to malaysia heck i dont care much cause with the financial hardship my family's in i'll be lucky to go anywhere outside singapore =)

Right now i'm home alone cause everyone is at my younger sis, idah's, camp night walk. Choose not to follow em cause the night walk is walking along orchard rd and lau pa sat. I would go if it is anywhere interesting but to follow a bunch of kids to walk around orchard road i think i'll pass. So i'm now typing this infront of the tv having my own movie marathon without anyone disturbing... cant get anything better then this except that i'm hungry! I just finished a huge bowl of fried macaroni, a box of white grapes and i'm still hungry... damn... i'll just have to ransack the kitchen's cabinet now....

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12/24/2003 01:13:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 23, 2003

2 more days to x-mas yippee! Not entirely sure why i'm so goddamn happy for since i won't be gettin any x-mas gifts but wat the heck its christmas! =P

oh yah btw...
Happy Birthday to Nazura!!!

It was photo taking day during murder game rehearsals. Everyone looked pretty! And not surprisingly i was the photographer for the day. Check out my pic gallery for some of the pics. (don't expect the pics to be professionally done cause we werent in a proper studio) None of my pic was taken since i will only be playing a minor role in the play so you won't see any of my photo there =) Since it ended early today i didnt have anything planned to do so kay and jaslyn asked me along to watch LOTR- Return of The King...

My verdict on the movie... It's excellent! Absolutely amazing! The most powerful of the trilogy. Each character were really superb. There was more screen time on Merry and Pippin compared to the previous two movies and they were darn cute. They provided comic relief in the movie, they also showed immense courage even though they were hobbits and were told countless times that the battle was no place for them. Arwen was beautiful as every; i admire her strong faith in her love in Aragon. Eowyn, even though her love was rejected she remained strong and fought side by side the men. And then we have Aragon... the ranger who must now take his place as the King of Gondor. Viggo Mortensen plays Aragon wonderfully! well if there is such word as that but yeah he was great! okayokay gushing sowie... hehe...

so waddaya think? great pic huh =P Okay confession to make... i cried several times during the movie! just cant help it lah really touching or for some scenes sad....
I guess that's the only highlight of my life today, watching LOTR hehe... other than that nothing much happened today... maybe tomorrow wld be an interesting day... :P
oh yah MG will be taking a break till 3rd Jan....

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12/23/2003 01:41:00 AM
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Monday, December 22, 2003

Complete sincerity: You believe in being
straightforward with others, and you expect the
same from them. People would consider you a
good listener, and one who is calm and mostly
serious.

Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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12/22/2003 03:14:00 AM
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got this off someone's blog, so since i'm utterly bored i decided to do this...

LAYER 0NE:
-- Name: Nur Azizah Bte Md Roslan
-- Birth date: 23 November 1984
-- Birthplace: Singapore
-- Current Location: Tampines, Singapore
-- Eye Color: Black
-- Hair Color: Black
-- Height: 1.74
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Saggitarius

LAYER TWO:

-- The shoes you wore today: My Skechers shoes
-- Your weakness: stubborn and tempremental at times
-- Your fears: losing my loved ones
-- Your perfect pizza: Pizza hut's curry chicken pizza with extra cheese and no onions
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Short term goal is to do well in poly and get my diploma... long term goal is to open my very own shop =)

LAYER THREE:

-- Your most overused phrase(s) on MSN: haha..., or rite...
-- Your thoughts first waking up: What time is it?
-- Your best physical feature: I've been told that its my smile... or was it my teeth? haha...
-- Your bedtime: usually its 11pm, nowadays... tsktsk almost 3am....
-- Your most missed memory: ITE school days...

LAYER FOUR:

-- In love? : not yet but hopefully in the near future...

LAYER FIVE:

-- Smoke: eww.. wont touch that stuff
-- Cuss: at who? i'm a good girl.... ;P
-- Sing: Like always =)
-- Take a shower everyday: like duh, but of course
-- Have a crush: Yea but trying not to have one... darn not making any good job at it...
-- Do you think you've been in love: not really...
-- Want to go to college: Yeap
-- Like(d) high school: hated sec sch but loved ITE =D
-- Believe in yourself: Yea i do, you have to believe in yourself first before others can believe in you...
-- Get motion sickness: rarely but there are occasions =P
-- Think you're attractive: haha... rite.... that wld be the day... when lightning strikes haha...
-- Think you are a health freak?: not really, i basically eat whatever i want =P
-- Get along with your parent(s): Yea
-- Like thunderstorms: only when i'm indoors
-- Play an instrument: used to play the piano... not anymore... *sigh*

LAYER SIX:

In the past month...
-- drank alcohol: Nope i dont drink
-- Smoked: Nope, wont touch tat stuff
-- Done a drug: Nope wont touch tat stuff either
-- Had Sex: ONLY AFTER MARRIAGE
-- Made Out: Nope.. like tat wld ever happen...
-- Gone on a date: Nope... like it wld ever happen... *Sigh*
-- Gone to the mall?: yea
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Nope
-- Eaten sushi: No
-- Been on stage: nope
-- Been dumped: Never been attached so cant ans that
-- Gone skating: Never tried

LAYER SEVEN:

Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing:Nope
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
-- been caught "doing something": doing what??
-- Been called a tease: No
-- Got beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: hmm... dont recall ever doing it...

LAYER EIGHT:

-- Age you hope to be married: 27/28 if i do that is...
-- Numbers and Names of Children: ...*wonders if i would have any*....
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: In a castle in Ireland *sigh*
-- How do you want to die: w/o pain
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: u mean i haven't grown up yet? haha... okok dream job... a radio dj...

LAYER NINE:

In the opposite sex
-- Best eye color? Doesn't matter
-- Best hair color?: Doesn't matter
-- Short or long hair: short
-- Height: tall
-- Best weight: Just right
-- Best articles of clothing: comfortable
-- Best first date location: dinner somewhere nice or at a cafe over coffee (well tats mocha for me =P)
-- Best first kiss location: in the rain? haha...

LAYER TEN:

-- # of drugs taken illegaly: 0
-- # of people I could trust with my life: hmm.. gd question... can only think of 3...
-- # of CDs that I own: a lot... uncountable...
-- # of tattoos: 0
-- # of scars on my body: 3 frm my operation
-- # of birthmarks: 0
-- # of things in my past that i regret: didnt get a chance to say i'm sorry and goodbye to my dad before he passed away....

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12/22/2003 02:09:00 AM
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Sunday, December 21, 2003

Rage and anger is something i really hate to go tru. When it hits you it is very hard to control it. Your heart beats faster and you wish to kill everyone in sight. Thinking of a peaceful place and thinking happy thoughts are not enough. Rage and anger seems to be more powerful. I now understand how a person who seeks revenge feels. How rage and anger overcomes them. But still we need to be in control. Actions we take have its own consequences.

On a lighter note....
Yesterday it was raining cats and dogs. Still i had to go out to meet Nuraini and Noreen in town. On my way there, well that's how my anger snapped. You know how you are in a hurry to get someplace and some inconsiderate, irritating singaporeans couldnt care less. When there is so much space in the back of the bus and those standing just wouldnt move to the back? Well that happened to me yesterday in the middle of the pouring rain and i was in a hurry and well not surprisingly i couldn't get on the bus... well i shall not get into detail what i was thinking next =)
Well anyways when i reached town it was still raining and guess what we had to walk in the rain all the way to tanglin mall. i almost wanted to strangle nuraini there and then but i restrained myself and continued being happy bout it haha... seriously i didnt mind walking in the rain cause i guess the rain is trying to soothe me =D
Well the whole evening i was getting wet then dry then wet again... i think i'm gonna get a fever soon.

Well x-mas is coming soon! yay! Well even tho i dont really celebrate it, its my fave time of the year. Dont ask me why but i just like it =D 27th is the law x-mas party.... i'm still not sure how many is gonna turn up cause a lot of them are not sure if they would be coming...
Sometimes i wonder... why the lack of support from some? Is there a flaw somewhere that i cant see? I just wonder...

Well anyway i'm suppose to go back 'there' today but guess wat? One of the staff, kak rubiah, called and she said i didn't have to go back 'there' today cause they are going for a camp and that i can only return there on the 24th. Best news i've heard in days =D

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12/21/2003 08:32:00 PM
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borderm has led me to taking more quizzes.... haha...

yellow

Your soul is bound to the Yellow Rose: The
Gentle.

"I've travelled through the land of
surrender and seen it all. I throw my heart
out and keep my head up, and now I travel
through the land of peace."

The Yellow Rose is associated with friendship,
intuition, and fun. It is governed by the
goddess Hestia and its sign is The Intertwined
Rings, or True Friendship.

As a Yellow Rose, you always look out for your
friends. You would much rather have strong
ties with friends than a single tie with a
lover and your devotion to your friends is
clear. You may have great intuition and be
able to read emotions clearly, but sometimes
you can seem distant yourself.

Pirates of the Caribbean!

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Your: Happy eyes! Your cheerfull, bright and always
want to try something new. Your inquisitive and
quite lovable. You have many friends and will
succseed in life.

Your dreams are just as passionate as you are. Just
to think you have a very deep soul and an open-
mind to your feels. congrates.

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12/21/2003 08:15:00 PM
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Saturday, December 20, 2003

Yesterday's murder game rehearsal was surprisingly short so i went to meet up with some of my friends from VSA camp...well there was only 4 of us, me, lynette, geks and calvin. Really had a great time with them. We just sat at the baker's inn (they serve great mocha btw) at one fullerton and just talked. The wheather was great and all. We sat there till ard 11 plus cause we were afraid if we stayed any longer we'll miss the last train =D Got to know em a bit better after the mini gathering, really hope we'll do it again =)

Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost,
No birth, identity, form - no object of this world,
Nor life, nor force, nor any visible thing;....

I wonder if our souls were ever one,
if you must know i hope never shall they be apart;
with splendid dawn, your face aglow
I reach for you and find my heart...

It still amazes me how one can express ones feelings thru words, simple beautiful words. Words from the heart... But i wonder if they would ever be understood by the person it is meant for...

I fell for a stranger
without knowing when or how
wonder if we ever met once before
centuries before now
stranger then, friends for now
will it ever change
fate will lead the way

for now i'll be silent
like i always will be
hoping that fate be on my side
que sera sera
what ever will be will be...

oh and btw...
Happy Belated Birthday to Kay!!!

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12/20/2003 02:11:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Today surprisingly is the day off for murder game rehearsals. Not sure what called for the break but i guess everyone is tired which why the break is called. So now i'm at home stuck with nothing to do. Was suppose to accompany Kay for her second round of the singing competition but at the last minute she told me she post poned it to next week. I guess she's tired too... I think i'm gonna spend today at home... read a good book and watch tv until my eyes fall off.. haha...
So far the murder game rehearsals have been going smoothly, so no complaints from me =)
Which brings me now to Law Inc. So many unseen problems that need to be solved ASAP. I just can't put my finger on it. We are a team but thats just it. full stop. There's something wrong somewhere. I've heard many different opinions from the ppl inside and even the other students. I'm still pondering on Apri's question. What i can do to help my team? Simple question huh. but i don't have a definite answer to it. Right now all i can do is do my ultimate best and help out wherever i can...

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12/17/2003 05:08:00 PM
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Monday, December 15, 2003

Feelings

how do you know when love strike you in the face?

as for me, i nv feel love for my past 4 yrs...as i broke off with my ex and ever since have been facing the world alone except for a couple of times of dating.

when i was younger, i dunno what is love...i tot if a couple can be together, it means love...

now i only know what my heart is telling me...just that in my previous thread on how to make a guy woo me....when he said he love me, i told him i could only like him for the moment...to me, there is no feeling of love...just pure liking as a fren

sometimes i realised it is good that my ex left me coz thru the painful experience, i learnt love is not a easy thing to get hold of and if you are not careful enough, it might hurt you back

i learnt not to pour out all my love at one go...i learnt to be careful and how to protect myself...

well i just felt that being with my ex is like running a marathon and after running it, you feel that there is no energy left in your body to run another race. this is exactly how i feel towards love or rather towards him 4 yrs ago...

sometimes i felt that my heart is being buried in ice so deeply that it become frosty and felt nothing in this world can break thru this thick wall of ice.

i realise alot of things cannot be rushed...i realised i got all the time in the world to nurture love...but i am always rushing for love...i discovered there are simply no shortcuts in life...either you have to fight or you don't...in order to get the things you want in life.

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Last edited by angelize79 on 11th December 2003 at 12:35 PM

i got this off a message board i frequent. This lady here spoke from the heart and i feel like it is something most of you guys can relate to and something i can learn from...

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12/15/2003 01:00:00 AM
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Sunday, December 14, 2003

Yesterday my day out with my ol' pals... uneventful i guess. We did the same things we always do when we're together. It was good to see them. We ended the day at starbucks. All of us sat on the huge sofa and just talked... well ifah did most of the talking. She was complaining bout her job. I understand where she's coming from but sometimes i can't help thinking if everything is blown out of proportion. Like we all do when we feel frustrated and angry at something or someone.

Hmm.. working life... i would be there if i didn't continue my studies. But i couldn't imagine myself working right now. I understand what ifah meant bout working life, its basically all routine. Hell i've been there myself when i was on attachment. It was not like wat i'd imagined it to be at all. Getting scold by your employer for nothing is not a great feeling. Working life starts off when you wake up in the wee hours in the morning, be in the office by 0830hrs (doesnt matter if you live on the other side of the country) and working hrs end at 1730 hours oh but it doesnt mean you get out on the dot... by the time you reach home its already time to sleep and its the same damn thing all over again the next day. Bottomline is i would rather have a job i enjoy doing rather then something that would drain me.

Went to watch "love Actually" with my sis just now. Really excellent movie. I recommend it to everyone, even those who don't have a heart =P I guess its true. We can say that love actually is all around but sometimes i wonder. I wonder if i'm within that circle. Get it? around and circle? haha.. i know kind of lame. anyway yah. tats how i feel sometimes. Love. ai. pyaar. cinta. amour. Will it ever be present in my life? Not at the rate my life is going now... =)

anyway when we got back my entire block was having a black out. yah the entire block. Must be some idiot who tripped the power. I think he should receive idiot of the year award 2003. Luckily the lift was working. I donno how but i guess it was powered by the back up generator. If not i would have to climb up the stairs till the 11th storey. Power was gone for an hour plus. Luckily i had some candles in my possession. I realised how dependent we are with electricity. Nothing works when there is no power (unless its battery operated of course). Sometimes its good to keep in touch with our roots (living with no electricity i mean) cause our ancestors didnt have electricity back then but hey they survived. =)

Pic of me, aida and ifah

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12/14/2003 06:04:00 PM
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Saturday, December 13, 2003

Didn't do much when i went out with nor and wan. Was suppose to meet them at 7.30 in Bugis and i thought i was late turned out to be both guys were late for half an hour, why am i not surprised.. sheesh. We walked ard bugis for a bit then hikal called, he asked us to come down to his family's shop which has just opened at clarke quay. In order to get there we had to walk past boat quay. It was my first time walking there at night and i don't think i'll ever walk there alone. I mean its a happening place and all with loads of things going on but getting hit by a stranger and ppl asking u to go to their bar is not my cup of tea. Anyway hikal's family shop was kind of like any other coffeeshops. He treated us to drinks and satay since we were like the first bunch of friends to come visit his family shop. We didnt hang out there long cause it was already 2230 and aznor needed to go home already. So on the way back to raffles mrt we didnt walk at boat quay but walked opposite it where the Asian Civilisation Museum (empress) was. The river is a lovely view at night. Gd place to take a nice peacful stroll with your loved ones. Well if you have a significant other that is, if you don't, like me, its a good place to stone haha...
When we reached the OUB centre we came across Lin! It was good to see her. Missed her so much! the last time i saw her was doing graduation. She was there with her friend Aishah. They were waiting for a couple more ppl to go clubbing. I think she said they were going to the chocolate bar.. or something like that.
Well today i'm suppose to go jalan raya with ifah and aida. but seriously i have no mood to jalan raya already. I mean i only went out once which is the first day of raya and the rest of the days i was in sch... i told aida that i wasn't in the mood and if we could do something else but then she said ifah and her might be cooking... so as not to dissapoint them i agreed. So now i'm suppose to be at ifah's place at 1600... and now i absolutely donno wat to wear cause i'm totally not in the mood to wear any thing formal, feel like wearing something casual jeans and t-shirt but i guess that will not be appropriate huh *sigh* I think after all this is over i should treat myself to a movie muahahaha... seriously need to destress before murder game rehersals starts full force which will be almost everyday...
Update you later bout my day... au revoir!

signing off...

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12/13/2003 02:58:00 AM
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Friday, December 12, 2003

3.44 pm and i'm still at home and its my day off somemore. I am bored to death! luckily wan msged me. Today he just finished his thingy at police acad (i seriously donno wat its called, i think he mentioned that his POP was on wed =P)so he and aznor planned to go out after nor get off work at 5pm so they asked me along. My 2 saviours! Always there when i need them... funny and both are guys haha... regard them as my bros. Wan wan... still cant get over Su. I've run out of ideas how to help him. Haha i still remember that day when he said, "zah kalau kau ada matair satu hari nanti. aku nak jumpa dia nak berbual ngan dia suruh dia jaga kau betul2..." really sweet of him, fathers are suppose to do that for their daughters right, well since my dad isnt with us anymore i guess... close friends will have to do since my bro are all still young =)

Something suddenly got me thinking bout Law Inc. We had a appraisal thingy when we were having a mtg at edel's place and they all said i should speak up more and stuff, the thing is i have to agree with them cause compared to when i'm with my frends i'm really quiet during mtgs. I think i still to get myself comfortable in the comm. Don't get me wrong though all of em' are great ppl but i still need time to get to know them, oh except MX that is, already know him quite well since we are in the caregrp =) Still getting used to the idea of being in law inc, sometimes i'm afraid i might offend the person so i'll just keep quiet. I can't be Like Apri, he's something like the Devil's Advocate but i'm afraid of hurting ppl's feeling and i know sometimes by not saying i'm letting something bad turn into worse... maybe i should get used to the idea of voicing out my opinions... and funny thing is when i voice my opinion its always at the wrong situation and timing arrgh!

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12/12/2003 03:44:00 PM
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today is gonna be like my first day off after a whirlwind of things to do. So now... what should i do? I have absolutely no plans, might as well say no life! argh! everyone is either going out for a date, working, on vacation, carolling practice or doing something none of my biz... so what am i suppose to do?? Mel and soff suggested lying around in bed the whole day... but its gonna be more draining.. i rather do something interesting or fun. Darn. My day off and i have no idea what to do. *sigh*
I guess i'll think bout something... maybe go catch a movie alone, or walk somewhere to kill time or stone somewhere haha...

M & M... Trouble in paradise... I dont know what to do anymore. My two closest friends and i have to watch them hurt each other. Not by words they say and the actions they do but by the words they don't say and actions they don't do... i fell so helpless. One keeps telling me how hurt she's feeling and the other shows a black face whenever i try to broach the subject... i feel so helpless.
I know i'm not much help since i've never been in a relationship before but i just can't turn down a friend in need. Why is it people always go to me when they have probs with their relationship when they perfectly know that i've never been in one? opps sorry got side tracked... i've already run out of ideas how to help them. Both went into a rushed relationship and they hardly know each other... i'm just afraid they'll break up... that'll be so sad... i wouldnt want that to happen... me and k are so clueless on what else we can do...
remind me never go into rushed relationships...

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12/12/2003 02:53:00 AM
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Thursday, December 11, 2003

after 3 days of hard work finally the murder game script is completed! Yay! Pat on the back for all fellow scriptwriters oh and special thanks to Priya who was with us the whole way =D
Seriously i'm dead beat... anyone care to sponsor me to go for a vacation?? i desparately need one right now! Hmm... no one? well nevermind... guess i'm stuck where i am right now... sigh...
Sis just bought her laptop yesterday. Her laptop can play dvd, has a cd burner, pentium 4 processor... okok i'm jealous! haha...
3 more days before i have to go back to THAT place in PP. Time flies so fast... I don't even feel like i've been on HL. Maybe its because i'm in sch most of the time haha...
well anyway i think i'm beginning to sprout nonsense... need my s l e e p or i'll just drop dead later...

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12/11/2003 01:48:00 AM
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Monday, December 08, 2003

If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say I love you,
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.

There will always be another day
to say our I love you's,
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do's?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get
to hold your loved one tight..

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear,

Take time to say "I'm sorry, please forgive me,"
"thank you" or "it's okay".
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today

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12/08/2003 07:44:00 PM
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Sunday, December 07, 2003

i was bored so here are results of quizzes that i took...

Sorrowful

As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming of

You're Perfect ^^

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

Air

Your element is Air. You are an artistic person
with a unique sense of style. You are
intelligent; although prone to wonder in
thought which, prevents you from paying full
attention to most things, constantly active and
most likely like to sing. Constantly moving the
air is a force of nature. One moment you can be
a breeze the next a tornado.

You are Professor X!

You are a very effective teacher, and you are very
committed to those who learn from you. You put
your all into everything you do, to some extent
because you fear failure more than anything
else. You are always seeking self-improvement,
even in areas where there is nothing you can do
to improve.

are these tests for real? haha...

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12/07/2003 07:41:00 PM
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.The Writer.

.Through Their Eyes.

.Archive.

.ShoutOuts.

.Reading.

.In My iPod.

.contactez-moi.