Friday, December 12, 2003

3.44 pm and i'm still at home and its my day off somemore. I am bored to death! luckily wan msged me. Today he just finished his thingy at police acad (i seriously donno wat its called, i think he mentioned that his POP was on wed =P)so he and aznor planned to go out after nor get off work at 5pm so they asked me along. My 2 saviours! Always there when i need them... funny and both are guys haha... regard them as my bros. Wan wan... still cant get over Su. I've run out of ideas how to help him. Haha i still remember that day when he said, "zah kalau kau ada matair satu hari nanti. aku nak jumpa dia nak berbual ngan dia suruh dia jaga kau betul2..." really sweet of him, fathers are suppose to do that for their daughters right, well since my dad isnt with us anymore i guess... close friends will have to do since my bro are all still young =)

Something suddenly got me thinking bout Law Inc. We had a appraisal thingy when we were having a mtg at edel's place and they all said i should speak up more and stuff, the thing is i have to agree with them cause compared to when i'm with my frends i'm really quiet during mtgs. I think i still to get myself comfortable in the comm. Don't get me wrong though all of em' are great ppl but i still need time to get to know them, oh except MX that is, already know him quite well since we are in the caregrp =) Still getting used to the idea of being in law inc, sometimes i'm afraid i might offend the person so i'll just keep quiet. I can't be Like Apri, he's something like the Devil's Advocate but i'm afraid of hurting ppl's feeling and i know sometimes by not saying i'm letting something bad turn into worse... maybe i should get used to the idea of voicing out my opinions... and funny thing is when i voice my opinion its always at the wrong situation and timing arrgh!

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.