Sunday, December 21, 2003

Rage and anger is something i really hate to go tru. When it hits you it is very hard to control it. Your heart beats faster and you wish to kill everyone in sight. Thinking of a peaceful place and thinking happy thoughts are not enough. Rage and anger seems to be more powerful. I now understand how a person who seeks revenge feels. How rage and anger overcomes them. But still we need to be in control. Actions we take have its own consequences.

On a lighter note....
Yesterday it was raining cats and dogs. Still i had to go out to meet Nuraini and Noreen in town. On my way there, well that's how my anger snapped. You know how you are in a hurry to get someplace and some inconsiderate, irritating singaporeans couldnt care less. When there is so much space in the back of the bus and those standing just wouldnt move to the back? Well that happened to me yesterday in the middle of the pouring rain and i was in a hurry and well not surprisingly i couldn't get on the bus... well i shall not get into detail what i was thinking next =)
Well anyways when i reached town it was still raining and guess what we had to walk in the rain all the way to tanglin mall. i almost wanted to strangle nuraini there and then but i restrained myself and continued being happy bout it haha... seriously i didnt mind walking in the rain cause i guess the rain is trying to soothe me =D
Well the whole evening i was getting wet then dry then wet again... i think i'm gonna get a fever soon.

Well x-mas is coming soon! yay! Well even tho i dont really celebrate it, its my fave time of the year. Dont ask me why but i just like it =D 27th is the law x-mas party.... i'm still not sure how many is gonna turn up cause a lot of them are not sure if they would be coming...
Sometimes i wonder... why the lack of support from some? Is there a flaw somewhere that i cant see? I just wonder...

Well anyway i'm suppose to go back 'there' today but guess wat? One of the staff, kak rubiah, called and she said i didn't have to go back 'there' today cause they are going for a camp and that i can only return there on the 24th. Best news i've heard in days =D

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.