Thursday, January 01, 2004

first and foremost....

~~ HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! ~~

The end of 2003 as we know it. We leave behind us the bad, the good and the ugly and usher in the new year to start afresh and do things better after learning from past mistakes and get started on our new year resolutions.

Reflecting...
2003 was a rollercoaster ride for me. From ITE to Poly, leaving old friends and making new ones, getting rid of old habits and having new ones, emotional turmoils, conflicts, stress, loss.... well u get the idea =P I've learned and exprienced a lot this year and i cherish every lesson and memories of it. True there may have been some regrets here and there but that's how life works sometimes. Ive learned that being true to oneself is important and not to care too much abt what ppl say cause it would only pull you down.

Enough of looking back, some say its bad luck haha...
2004.... a year of hope and opportunities. We cant look into the future but we can make a difference in our lives and the people around us, its up to us really. Our choice. So this year i hope its gonna be a fantastic year! Gonna make sure of it =P
So here is my new year resolutions.... (not in order of inportance)

1) Do better in my studies... how? well pay more attention to lectures, do tutorials and read up more.
2) Save at least $2 a day
3) Continue voluteering for VSA camps
4) Be on time for meetings
5) Do what i preach
6) Try not to speak my mind too much as in retort back cause its just gonna upset me alot
7) Be closer to my family members get to know them better... cause i dont see them much... some of u know why...
8) Make my mum happy... lessen her burden...
9) oh and last but not least... Fall in love with a significant other... which i dont tink would happen anytime soon haha... not very optimistic in this dept =) but a hope nonetheless... any reccomendations?? haha...

One can never expect the unexpected so its best that we take one day at a time. Bring hope and happiness to people close to us and around us. Okay i know i sound too optimistic but hey one has the right to feel this way sometimes esp when its the start of a new year =) I'm not saying that bad things wont happen, or that you (or refering mainly to me) wont get hurt or dissapointed, well shit happens but its up too us how bad we want to make the situation, how we want to preceive the situation right? Always remember that no one can make us feel inferior without your consent.

Before i end this i wanna say a few thank yous....
Firstly...
Thank you to all my friends who have been there with me when i was going through a difficult time;
the original K-oZ peeps. Thank you for everything you guys have done for me, the good memories and not forgetting the bad =) but most of all for being you. (This esp goes out to Aida and Ifah)

to all my ex-classmates of IS0107P and 1SC1 thank you for a great year! Miss you guys alotalot... when are we gonna have our next gathering?

to my T/O Mr Chua and good friend Irwan thank you for believing in me..

to the other 2/3 of irazimei... thank you for being there whenever i was in need, the good times and the bad. You guys made my life in poly a terrific one!

to my poly friends (the family)... you guys are one great bunch! Thank you for being you! Dont change ya!

to all Sui Generians thank you for all the good times we had as a class, the support that you guys have shown towards
each other, esp for being you cause you guys make up sui generis. nothing is ever gonna change that...

to my fellow murder game scriptwriters... thank you for a wonderful time. I really learned a lot and enjoyed working together. Hope we'll continue writing together...

to my other poly friends.... thank you for making poly life more bearable hehe... but seriously thank you for the support some of you have given me

to all VSA befrienders and campers you guys opened my eyes to a lot of things. showed me the beauty of voluteerism work. Thank you.

to all my friends and staff at darul ihsan orphanage... thank you for all the good and bad memories. You guys made me what i am today; more knowledgeable that is =) We went tru so much together, you guys are like my 2nd family. thank you for being you...

and last but not least to my family for being there whenever the situation is. i know we have our rough moments but there are happy moments too. Especially to my mum, i know you are going thru a lot, you're the strongest women i ever know. Thank you for your love and support. God bless you!

To whoever i missed out.. thank you for being in my life...

okay whoa it sounds like i'm receiving an award haha... but seriously this comes from the heart. My appreciation for everyone who has come into my life cause i can't give material things cause it would be pointless... well also because i'm not rich... but a simple thank you is a sincere appreciation that is more meaningful than some stuff...

God Bless...

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1/01/2004 01:22:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.