Sunday, February 22, 2004

The Vertical Marathon was today! yups! suppose to participate but then was lacking of team members thus i didnt climb today... Really have to thank god for that actually wasnt really feeling well... haiz... well anyway really really proud of all those who went up today. really salute them!
After that spent the whole day with mei. We ended up at changi airport to eat and then we just spent the afternoon just talking. Felt good just to talk.
Anyway as i was on my way back i felt this pain in my heart. Scared me for a bit there. It hasnt happen in a long time but then that surge came. Then was reading my e-mails from my yahoo groups and there was an e-mail abt this woman who is the founding member of the Marfan Network Japan whose sudden death
was caused by the dissection of the aorta. Found unconscious on a chair on the platform of a subway station, she was taken to the hospital by ambulance, but too late. Kiez i got really scared. Seriously. When i felt that pain in my chest i was in the train. It could have happened to me. I donno. Sometimes i'm really scared. My dad passed away because of his aorta too. i donno. i think it may happen to me too... I always thank god for giving me time in this life, to feel, to live, to hope, to dream... but sometimes i feel i'm missing out on stuff... it makes me think how life is short. How precious life is. But i can never change fate. All i can do is take each day at a time. Appreciating every breath i take, feeling alive...

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2/22/2004 08:55:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.