Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Frankly speaking i'm bloddy pissed off rite now. I just lost all my files in my zip disk and this is like the fourth bloody zip disk that has srewed up on me. And to bloody top it off tomorrow is my bloody LSM OP and its at 9am! Fuct how worse can it get. Sorrie for the language but i'm serously pissed off rite now. If possible i feel like crying which would be of no use cause it wont change a bloody thing. So now i have to stay up the whole night to re-do the slides. And what's the rest gonna do? All they said were "oh no", "shit", "oh at least you have some part of the slides in your e-mail so you wont have to everything again". Fine. and the one whos gonna not sleep and have to do it all over again is who? ME. no prizes for guessing.
You know the bloody irritating thing is this all could have been prevented if the bloody grp listened to me in the first place and made up a back up copy on someonelse's zip disk. But NO. Everyone thinks they are so damn bloody right and i'm wrong. Great. I had enough. Next time i'll bloody do it myself since my opinions are never heard. Oh and the bloody ironic thing is someone wld mention the same bloody suggestion that i've suggested before and everyone would say it is damn bloody good idea. I'm not saying abt this proj but abt everything else.
My grp hasnt even properly rehearsed and i'm damn worried. But the others dont seem to be. Man i'm damn fucking tired but i cant do anything about it. One day i'm just gonna drop dead. Then eveyrone would be happy. Great. How pessemist can i get? But wtf, wth, i'm better off dead anywayz gonna happen sooner or later and no one's gonna miss a thing.

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3/16/2004 12:47:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.