Saturday, March 20, 2004

how can you say that you dont judge a person but then you go "oh shes at it again", "nah she'll never change" or "there she goes again always like that"... isn't that already judging? When you think that you'll never get thru a person who decides when the person wants to change? you? who are you to make it all better within minutes? You're not god. You say we are friends but then you say nobody knows you only your closest friends but when i try to get to know you, you change the subject... You tell ppl you need time, that you need time to move on and that we cant force you to tell us everything but when it happens to another, surprise surprise you're doing exactly the same thing that you told us not to do. You say we are friends but sometimes whenever i need your support, i'm left hanging, left dissapointed, and ironically you once said that you'll always be there for me when i need support... funny how strong that support is... You tell me that i need a break should lessen my work load but then when u are suppose to do something you resist and dropped it and what happens to it? It is pushed to me. Thank you for your wonderful consideration. How thoughtful you are. Whenever ppl talk about you, i defend you but when it comes to me you contribute to the conversation. wow how wonderful. When you were in need, when you felt down i dropped everything and ran to you, but when i felt so down and out, where were you?

Contradictions

Hypocrisy

The world's full of it

superb, absolutely wonderful

not

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.