Monday, March 01, 2004

lalala...
*think happy thoughts*
yes kay loads of angst on my previous postings...
cant be helped but i'm gonna start thinking happy thoughts... lalala... no use me beating myself about stuff... i'm throwing away my hopes for now cause there's no more hope from the way i see it. Denial of reality i should say. Forget about him, forget about me thinking about the inevitable, forget me thinking about the impossible. Maybe i should think for me for once. Why think cause it will only bring me down. Be free i say. Smell the roses. Let the wind carry our thoughts away. lalala... ok goin crazy already.. lalala... might as well.. gd for the heart, a burden of weight lifted haha... if i'm scaring you i'm sorry you feel that way but i dont care anymore lalala... i'm sick and tired of ppl judging me, i'm sick and tired of feeling down, i'm sick and tired of feeling sick, i'm sick and tired of feeling things i shldnt be feeling... not that i'm not gonna stop caring or being nice cause its already part of me but i'm gonna stop being paranoid and do what ever i feel like doing and not think of what ppl might think of me cause its tiring and thinking too much makes me tired too... so yea... *ok azi stop and think happy thoughts* lalala...

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3/01/2004 01:56:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.