Monday, March 29, 2004

Sometimes when you think its your fault you realise it's not. You know how you get this feeling of maybe i could have done something but then sometimes you cant do everything. I guess i'm up to the point of i dont care anymore. If my care towards a friend is not appreciated and friendship means nothing then i'm fine with that cause i dont need to stress myself out for something i cant change. Sometimes i ask myself why i give in too much, why i blame myself for everything or sometimes i question myself if am i not a good enough friend that people take my vow of friendship so lightly? I can't answer these questions on my own cause i'm not in the position to answer that.

Since we are on this topic of friends.... what do you do when you regard someone as a friend but then they tend to have this hot and cold attitude towards you and you are stumped by it. One day they are super nice to you and the next they are.. well.. irritated by you our just simply ignore what you have to say. Well maybe you need to get to know each other better for you to understand the person but as a normal human being everyone has feelings. Just because you aren't close friends with the next person doesnt mean your actions or words means any less. The insensitivity of some ppl that i dont understand. Haiz... Well no one's perfect rite? But i do hope that all of us take time to reflect on our words, our actions, how it affects others cause the worse case scenario is the things you say can get yourself killed.... (haha... i guess i've been reading too many thriller books and watching too many movies)

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3/29/2004 07:25:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.