Friday, March 26, 2004

Today was the worse day of my life... ok tat's an overstatement.. maybe of the month at least I guess mother nature was insync with me today. Today's weather was exactly the way i was feeling. At least mother nature was able to just let it rain full force compared to me everytime i feel tears coming i stop myself cause i couldnt bring myself to let it all out. Went down to visit sis today... found out she has to undergo an emergency OP tomorrow cause her lungs collapsed...

you know i simply had it. You know sometimes how you feel angry and upset all at the same time and it hurts so much that you cant stand it? Thats exactly how i feel right now. Most reasonable advice anyone wld give is to channel it out somewhere but the thing is i donno where to. or someone else wld say to talk it out but then so far no one ever gave me a chance to, do you know how it feels like when you're trying to say something and the person keeps interrupting you. Frustrating aint it? And that's usually the case. The best way i can do it is here. Imagine being online and have ppl online but donno who to approach cause its very hard to get your thoughts and feelings across... and then having your hp phonebk filled with loads of ppl numbers but as you are scrolling down the list you have no idea who to call cause you donno if you'll be disturbing the person or if the person would even want to listen to you or not. Pathetic you might say. Yea story of my life. Great just great

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3/26/2004 11:39:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.