Friday, March 26, 2004

When u thought somethings gonna get better, they dont...

docs called mum today to tell her wat sis is suffering from...
this cant be happening... she went for surgery to get better and now blows come one after the other...
this is so unfair, i feel so darn useless, why does it have to happen to her, why couldnt it just happen to me when i went thru my OP, maybe if i went thru it she wldnt have to...
she's starting sch at TP next sem... so proud of her o's and she actually got in her dream course... and this had to happen...
mum's medisave's almost gone, we were never financially strong, i'm at a loss...
this is so not fair... why us? havent we suffered enough?
my mind's swirling, and i feel like drowning,.... i honestly dont know what to do....
i serously feel like breaking down rite now.....

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3/26/2004 12:39:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.