Friday, May 07, 2004
Acceptance
i mentioned before on how we should view life in a positive light.. something i believe in... in order to move on with our lives... i guess its easy to say when all for now is quiet and steady... but when we go thru something painful, something we feel so deeply abt that we dont think that anyone would understand its kinda hard... sometimes we dont actually do what we tell ppl, we give out advice when ppl are down but we fail to follow it ourselves... i guess its kinda natural, when times are bad its very hard to follow what you preach... especially when it concerns others, it concerns a member of the family, a loved one, we think more abt them then ourselves, we blame ourselves for their plight, we blame ourselves for our incapability to do anything more then we could, we blame on the choices we make and the what ifs... even tho sometimes its over, even if has passed, the memory haunts us, altho life goes on as per normal, and we are back to face reality, the pain still remains lodged deep in our hearts, something that will never go away no matter how many years have passed, no matter how hard we try to forget...
i guess i'm beginning to accept that... i'm beginning to accept the fact that the pain will always remain... i'm beginning to accept that no matter what i do it will come back to haunt me like how it has been haunting me time and time again... i guess u guys wont understand what i've been trying to accept... you may think you know but you don't cause if you did i wouldnt keep trying to make u understand... but i gave that up long ago cause no matter how many times i try you never seemed intrested in listening to what i have to say... you know how frustrating it is when you wanna talk, wanna say something but ppl just dont wanna listen or they may look like they are but are not. You know how frustrating it is to wanna help someone cause you understand what they are going thru but you're always brushed off time and time again cause you're not worthy of their time... gosh i'm damn sick and tired of it... i'm despically sick and tired of myself for always trying and never giving up cause it hurts... it hurts so much... cause in both scenarios i lose out... i'm shut out... i'm left alone... i'm left to deal with it on my own... and sometimes i dont think i'm strong enough...
but i've come to accept it... cause that's the only way my life can go on... why trouble myself a matter so petty in the eyes of some... why fight? just learn to accept... i doubt you would understand but then again you arent me....
sometimes i ask myself... why the heck am i lying to myself?
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SoNg Of ThE Day
Road To Acceptance
I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
I always waste my time just wondering
What the next man thinks of me
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance
And I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting
(Do you feel the same?)
(Do you feel the same?)
Adolescence
Just can't make sense
(It's calling my name)
(It's calling my name)
I take a look around
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred
If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realize that
We're all the same
It's just like our brain
When it apes insane
We feel the same pain
All my life I've seemed to have this need
I think at times it even turns to greed
We all want to join some family
We'll even sacrifice a moral changing
And I feel forgotten
Feel like rotting
(Do you feel the same?)
(Do you feel the same?)
Adolescence
Just can't make sense
(It's calling my name)
(It's calling my name)
I take a look around
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred
If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realize that
We're all the same
It's just like our brain
When it apes insane
We feel the same pain
I take a look around
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred
If you'd stop a while
And maybe if you'd smile
You would realize that
We're all the same
It's just like our brain
When it apes insane
We feel the same pain
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5/07/2004 12:38:00 AM
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