Sunday, May 16, 2004

so what have i been doing?
hmm... friday i had two meetings so i was in school frm morning till late afternoon... and after tat decided to walk all the way home... i just felt like walking.. so i walked thru the field, the market and then the park.. there were alot of changes the last time i walked all the way back home.. well.. not suprising tho i havent been ard my neighbourhood much... to date its already been ard 15 years since my family have been living here.. the path i took as i walked back home tat evening was the path i used to take when i ran errands for my mum like going to to the wet market and shops to buy groceries and stuff... well that was then when i was permanently living at home... a lot of childhood memories went thru my mind... there were so many changes around that it all looks different... shows how much i havent been ard... *sigh* i should walk ard the neighbourhood more often or i'll may just get lost in my own neighbourhood =P

Well today i accomponied my yongest bro to the zoo. His school organised a parent-child learning trail in the zoo they called it the tampines safari or something like tat... since my mum couldnt make it, i agreed to go in her place cause i didnt want my bro to miss the trip to the zoo.
We had fun going ard the zoo to look for the designated stations and complete the activities required but just tat there were some stuff that my bro wanted to do that he couldnt cause of the shortage of time.. they only gave us 2hrs and 45mins for the whole thing.. sigh.. so i told my bro we'll do it the next time we go.. but i wonder when that will be... haiz...

So after the trip basically i crashed at home cause i was exhausted and well spent the remaining hours of the day in 'my' room slacking and did some stuff that needed attending too... slacking doesnt mean no work is being done... just tat its being done at v.slow speed =P

When i was sitting at the zoo auditorium just now waiting for the de-briefing to end i started to think about identity. Mine basically. I've been called by diff ppl by diff names... well it is my name but its what they usually call me... diff grps of ppl know me or call me differently. There's Azizah, zizah, izah, zizie, azi, az or if they have fascination for names like xuan its Hazizah (go figure =P) its like with the diff grp of ppl i'm like a diff person. Like in ITE i'm usually called izah or zizah but in poly ppl wld usually call me azi... and the impact that i get on how my name is called varies... it may sound funny but whenever i'm with my ITE friends i feel more grown up and when i'm with my poly friends i dont... ok maybe its the age difference but i dont think so cause in ITE i'm the yongest among my friends but tat's not the case in poly... gee.. i'm confusing u aren't i? =P Haiz maybe if i can pull my train of thoughts together u'll understand better so i'll talk abt this someother time then...

Hmm.. ok my eyes are now crying for mercy.. need rest.. so gonna take a shower and sleep =P

cheers!

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.