Friday, May 14, 2004

tried to not blog today but couldnt resist =P

been taking early morning/late night showers nowadays...
i know its bad for the health but for one thing the nights have been so damn hot...

you know how sometimes no matter how many showers you take you can never seem to cool off...

but it aint because of the heat outside... but more of what's going on inside...
sometimes no matter how many showers you take, no matter how much you scrub yourself raw you still dont feel clean.. you still feel that you need to scrub some more.. scrub away your problems... scrub away the pain...
sometimes no matter how long you stand under the shower, altho the water soothes you, it just aint enough.. you just wanna stand there and let your problems flow down your body with the water down the drain..
sometimes you just wanna stay under the shower let the water soothe you and not come out until ur skin starts to wrinkle, that when you know its time to come out...

well at least its one way...

nowadays i dont feel like talking much. What's the point? Why bother ppl with things they do not need to be concern with. It doesnt help anymore... i'm back to the bottling... talking seem pointless... there are other ppl more troubled then me so why shld i even say anything... *Sigh*

and i still need that vacation.. but as it turns out not surprisingly i cant afford it... so here i am stuck where i usually am with work to be done which i appreciate very much cause i rather be doing work then waste away into oblivion and kill my brain cells in the process =P

oh and nad.. no i wont sign up for SI... i prefer to be the behind the scenes kinda person, the supporter =P will be supporting kay and mel all the way! like i will stand a chance with her and mel joining =P maybe in 10 yrs time when i'm too old for it..well if 30 is considered old =P or maybe in my dreams hehe... =P

the song tat i'm into rite now...
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.