Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Was watching a walk to remember just now well in between survivor that is =P and the thing about this movie is that it always leave me teary eyed. But then i began to think... will such a guy exist on this side of reality... well... as pessimistic as it sounds i dont think so cause i have yet to meet such a guy... well i know one of two guys that i know are really sweet but they are often overshadowed by the majority who are lets just say not my kind of guy. Lets just face it. Nothing is ever perfect in this world. Stuff like this only happen in the movies. Any chance of any of it ever happening to me... well lets just say its a big fat hopeless. I dont see myself in any of the scenarios cause i aint that lucky. Never was. Never will be. I'm the kind of gal guys tend to stay away from. Ask me why and i'll say "beats me". Its kinda unwritten somewhere in my fate i guess. The day that someone actually falls in love with me.. well lets just say i'll never see that coming =P
But then that's not what life is all about. Its about family ties, friendships, faith, hope, and love. Doesnt necessarily someone doesnt love you back it means nothing. Take pride that you can love. Your ability to love itself is a gift. Treasure it.

Well then lets move on...

Survivor. Well not surprisingly Amber won. I knew if Rob played it more strategicly and had brought Jenna forward he would have won. But well.. "love" played apart in his decision... well he lost a million bucks but in fact he won. Cause in the end he had Amber. The thing is money aint everything. Relationships is something that stays with no matter what.

And there's this other thing where i think gals cant make up their god damn minds. Wait. Well i'm a gal.. hmm... ok not all gals. some gals. They cant make up their own freakin minds. So what the heck am i refering to? I'm refering to the show Eye for A Guy. The gal chose Silvert but then in the end we found out she changed her mind and is now dating Mark? Whaawhat? A Sudden change of heart? or was it all just for the cameras? well it does not only apply here. Stuff like this, the ficklemindedness also appears in reality. Where ever you go you see this happening. Especially if you go shopping! Argh! I'm going like cant you decide already???? You dont spend half an hour in a shop and testing or trying anything in sight for more then half an hour and then buy nothing... gee... I seriously pity the guys who have to follow their girlfriends every where and wait on them hand and foot =P

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.