Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Nightmare Revisited

It almost happened again
was having dinner
somehow i felt sick after tat
so i stepped outside for awhile
needed to get some fresh air
then i started to breathe too fast
my heart was pumping too fast
flashback to what happened before
i was so damn scared
i felt like calling anyone who was with me on that day
the day that it happened
but i couldnt bring myself to
what's the point? i could barely talk...
tried to remember the stuff that i'm am/not suppose to do
like not breathe to fast and take in slow breaths
the thoughts of "this is not happening" kept running thru my head
stayed outside for abit trying to slow my heart
didnt want to alarm them...
me being scared is bad enuff...
nightmare revisited
i'm just messed up...

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7/27/2004 10:15:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.