Thursday, July 08, 2004

should i?
really seems tempting
changing into a cynical biatch
acrew the world kind of thing
like anyone would really care what i do
somehow all the good in me has somehow slipped out
drained out
lifeless soul
in a sick body
tired of it all
whatever
feel like saying
get lost to everyone
let me jump
and maybe the world will be a better place for some people.
who will miss the old me?
no one
cause i'm just as forgetable as any person you see on the streets
the back of my mind says NO
STOP IT
Carpe Diem!
bah humbug
no one can save me
no one ever does
i'm just a mistake in some people's life
a red mark in a perfect record card
a speck of dust on a perfectly white sheet
a dissapointment in the eye of a loved one
with a life less ordinary
a life of shattered dreams
a life with a lot of pit holes
a life of little hope

i'm sorry
got too much negative thoughts running in my head
dont even know why i'm apologizing
see i dont make a good biatch
bah
can somebody just shoot me now
feeling dreadfully sick
if this goes on i just might as well be dead
save a lot of people a ton of trouble
especially on medical bills

||:PreCiouS:||
7/08/2004 02:59:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.