Monday, August 02, 2004

Another day

well.. tmr's the much awaited accts test haha.. bring it on man wahaha... i should actually be studying rite now but honest to god i donno what to study hehe... accts totally make sense compared to maths! hurhur =P well helped to teach 2 peeps accts today, and like they say when you teach someone it actually helps u remember better haha...

well before i went off to school today i was partially cleaning "my" room (no i'm not anywhere near done to finish cleaning it =P) i came across my dad's ol' slide projector, you know the ones that u convert ur photos into those small slides?

ya tat one...

its been a long time since i actually used that projector so i decided to explore it... and came across of alot of ol' pics... and well.. some pics are of memories that i've forgotten... i know its bad to look at back at the past.. but then.. i was curious... i took out the whole box of slides that dad had kept in the upper cabinet that he used (yes i havent cleared his stuff yet after all this years...) and i realised how he actually treasure this projector of his...

i guess i really miss him...
after all this years... as i look back at all his pics i tried to think of all the memories i had of him... and i came to a conclusion that... even tho i know his traits and stuff... i really dont know him... i didnt get a chance to...
i wonder how life would have been if he was still here... a lot of things would have been different... but like they say, things happen for a reason...

someone used the word 'strong' today when they found out bout my family backgrd... and somehow... i donno how to describe the feeling... i felt like that justice wasnt done to the word... cause somehow i feel like i'm not that 'strong'... i'm not strong all the time... i have my weak days too...

woke up today staring at the ceiling... and first thing came into mind was trying to answer this question... "why am i a quiet person?"

haha.. yup.. strange rite.. early in the morning... haiz...

anyways came to this conclusion...
i am quiet because i learn to speak when only necessary.
Cause sometimes when i feel like sharing something personal with some peeps, their face will go "what is this girl talking abt? why is she telling us all this?" and if i stand up to go somewhere for awhile they would laugh it off thinking i did not notice... which hurts... so i learnt to keep quiet...
i keep quiet because i'm not sure if my thoughts are worth hearing...
i keep quiet because i would rather listen...
i keep quiet because the noisiest person that u know talks 90% crap and 10% facts.. well the percentage can vary...

so yea...

hmmz...

the backgrd music in the sch lib is making me depressed.. lol..

well till then..

salute...

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.