Wednesday, August 25, 2004

I wonder

I wonder if my previous posting provoked any thoughts to those reading it.
Did it actually made my friends wonder who am i as a person and reassess me, change their views on me as a friend?
Is there even any pretense at all on my part?
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if that enters your mind then i'm dissapointed. i really am. cause apparently you dont know me well enough that your views on me as a person can be changed just like tat. gee...

i wonder sometimes why i even bother to share my life here, share my happiness, my joy, my sadness, my anguish when i'm thought to not be the person who i say i am.
or maybe i should stop bloggin all together and let all my emotions bottle up again before it cracks and overflow like before.
The thing is i have no problems sharing my life, but hey i have my insecurities too cause after being backstabbed and hurt by ppl i trust countless times its still a wonder why i still can trust a lot of ppl.... only problem is they just dont trust me back enough to share their lives with me, cause maybe i'm just an insignificant nobody in their lives.
nvm
que sera sera, what ever will be will be....
shld i be bothered?
i shldnt shld i?

as long as i know i still have those few friends who accepts me for who i am. Those few friends who will be there for me thru thick and thin, Those few friends who can i be perfectly myself and not be afraid to hide anything. i'm thankful for them.

Who needs the world when i've got you

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8/25/2004 04:14:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.