Thursday, August 12, 2004

i'm having one of those days when i have alot of things in mind but dont know where to start...
having this irritating headache that wont seem to go away... haiz... still contemplating if i should go to school today so i can get some work done, cause you see i'm still at home, on my bed, getting irritated by the construction work downstairs, and this guy who i met thru msn who just wont give up trying to get me to catch a movie with him... some ppl just cant take a hint lehz argh...

got fed up with some peeps frm my former ite class... i'm always the last to know mostly about everything and when i finally found out they ask why did i miss it when wasnt informed in the first place! argh! seriously.. nvm i shall ignore... why should i bother rite??? but then i care thats why argh.. can somebody just replace my heart with stone so i wont be bothered with such things bleargh

well awi's performing at Fez Bar today and nxt thurs 10pm onwards feat. pug jelly and jamie gibbins and i really wanna go cause...

1) awi is a great musician,
2) support local music,
3) he's a fellow suigeneiran of couse must support him
4) pug jelly is gonna be there.....

but..

yes there's a but...

who in the world would go with me? and i have a early morning contract mtg tmr and have yet to finish up my powerpt slides.. haiz... priorities first i say =) but to those interested in good live music you guys should come down, have a listen, you wont be dissapointed =D

Its 2omins to 3pm and i'm still in bed, argh i'm just having a lazie day today, havent done this in a long while, just lemme indulge myself for once wahaha...

and i wonder who reads my blog everyday, my life tat interesting meh? i'm just curious as to why ppl read this... to find out who i really am? to kill time? to be kept informed on wat goes on in my life? i donno.. u tell me.. really tell me, i'm curious =)
for me i blog cause it keeps me sane haha... helps me reflect and put my thoughts into sequence, and cause i usually bottle up my feelings this is one of the outlets that i can destress, well even tho i still bottle up my feelings but not tat much hehe... on the days that u see me stoning well it actually says something... not sure if you get wat i mean.. haha...

cant believe its thursday already... sigh...

mum suggested to go to tat place today to see the supervisor.. yea i havent been back there for quite awhile with me falling sick and everything, and yea they dont know that cause i dont bother to tell them, let them come up with their own idea that i purposely dont want to go back there, if only they knew, but then their mind set is already not to trust any residents so might as well let them think watever they wanna think, i couldnt care less afterall i know some of them who'll be happy to be rid of me but then the supervisor just wont let go.. haiz... she even suggested some compromize which i have yet to agree on...
anyways back at the homefront things are not that great either.. have yet to talk to any of my siblings, i purposely come home late to avoid any contact with them and i'll go straight to my room, i think they are much happier this way, cause i'll be out of their hair, they're much happier without me i think, they always were, with them always telling me to go back there whenever i'm home fine i get the hint... unwanted as usual...

with things like this happening no wonder i'm alone, must be my character flaw i guess, destined to be alone....

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8/12/2004 12:48:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.