Friday, August 27, 2004

Never Let the Fear of Striking Out Keep You from Playing the Game

Something that i should have learnt a long time ago. But at least i know now. Funny how fear can grab you by the throat and disable you to do something.

Life has been one crazy rollercoaster ride for me and i guess i forgot how to be and believe in myself along the way, well except on certain occasions when i'm high on something like coffee or food haha...
I guess its time i stop and think for myself for once. Where i wanna go, what i want to become for myself, what i wanna do with my life...

As a kid, i confess, i was in love with fairytales, the happy endings, the prince charming, the whole package.. why? cause maybe it wasnt reality. Because somehow or rather i knew that it was all just fiction and would never happen to a gal like me. But hey face it we all have our own fantasies that we get lost in....
I guess maybe i indulge myself in it to much. As often as i deny it, i was always dreaming of my own happy ending.

its time i snap out of it. Its time i be honest to myself.

Its time that i sit down and think things through. I havent been doing enough of that cause i've been doing to much thinking of things i shouldnt be too concern about, of things that can pretty much be handled by other people, of things that i cannot control.

Its time to actually gather up all my strengths and capabilities and make something good out of it. For example my studies. I know i'm a more capable student then i already am, and i should show my full potential shouldnt i? instead of weighing myself down with things that can be handled on their own or by other people for tat matter. Cause i have to get somewhere rather then hang in limbo.

I shouldnt be afraid to show who i really am cause i have nothing to hide.
I have to change how i lead my life now. Its now or never.

Maybe life would be different now.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed =D

with this i withdraw myself from law inc

cause i believe i dont need law inc to do things that i believe i'm capable of doing

i'm not in it for the power, i'm not in it for the glory
if this is wat it comes down to
then i'm really sad

to serve the student body is an honor itself
and i'm thankful for having been given the opportunity in AY03/04

to the new law inc
i wish you all the best

salute

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8/27/2004 01:06:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.