Monday, August 16, 2004

Selfish

I guess i'm being selfish thinking the way i did. Afterall our time here on this earth is limited. We are but temporary figures on this earth and i guess i have no right to feel the way that i do. I for one should understand this cause i've lost ppl that i care about in just a span of my 20 years on this earth.

My friend lost her husband yesterday to a motor accident. Some friend i am. I didnt even know she was married until recently. They have a 9 month old son. Fate has been cruel to her, like me she lost her dad at a young age, her mum ran away and she only had her grandma who constantly worries about her... and just when she found happiness, it was cruelly taken away from her... another reminder of how limited time we have on earth. Losing a loved one is never easy, it takes time to heal but then time never stops long enough for the pain to heal, life moves on... To her i offer my condolences...

I guess i can go on and on talking about life, but what would be the point? Whenever we stumble and fall, we can only pick ourselves up, for some they just prefer to stay fallen which would be such a waste. In a way i guess i'm jealous of ppl who make out the most of their lives cause they enjoy what they do, may it be sports, music, the arts, etc... for me, well i havent found my niche yet... i keep drowning myself in work, which i guess is unhealthy in a way haha... Its like i know the things i'm not good at, and have yet to discover what i'm actually good at, so here i am stuck in limbo contemplating on the direction of my life...

In a way i guess its time for me to re-evaluate my life... but changes i wanna do, well gotta be taken one step at a time cause honestly school and family stuff consumes most of my time... maybe drastic changes can be done once the semester ends.. we shall see =)

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Shoot straight and have faith
that you're prayers are heard
And when you give a handshake,
make no mistake
you're giving your word
you'll probably get it wrong way
before you get it right
without the lows you don't appreciate the highs
You might just have one chance to get it right
These are the facts of life

||:PreCiouS:||
8/16/2004 06:43:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.