Friday, September 03, 2004

Choices

Its times like these, more often then not, i question my choices. Did i make the right choice? Were my choices good or bad? Is the circumstances today because of the choices i made.... sometimes i question whether i had made the right decision even tho i feel damn guilty about it cause something didnt go as expected because of changes that is present around us.
Do i have the ability to predict the future once i've made the decision? no i dont. So i shouldnt beat myself up about unexpected things that happen should i? but i donno. Am i just too soft hearted to feel this way?

Risks are taken everyday, may the outcome be good or bad but it is constantly present in this life we live in... is it wrong to have second thoughts? Even tho u know you've made the right choice, but you're feeling this way cause of how it has affected others...
Being selfish perhaps? But then my choice was supported, it says something doesnt it?

When you are given two choices and both are not ideals, a forced choice has to be made... But then being afraid of what both outcomes might be like, caught in a forked road, where to turn? left or right? Is this another risk to be taken to? To go by gut instinct or rational thinking?

I'm at a lost right now. I really am. But i dont know what to do... i dont wanna let my emotions/feelings get the best of me, i need to be clear minded and have both eyes wide open.... I need help but its too complicated to turn to anyone cause i doubt that anyone would understand... what in god's name am i suppose to do now?????

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9/03/2004 05:54:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.