Sunday, September 12, 2004

haiz.. a bad start to a Sunday...
brilliant me accidentally broke a music CD into 2 argh!!! and its not even mine...
which means this coming week's pocket money has to be used to replace it...
and now i realise i need to buy a lot of stuff,,,
lemme make a list...

1)Floor cleaning solution and dettol
2)a new broom, dustpan and mop (This is all for "my" room)
3)those board thingys so i can put notices on my bedroom wall so i dont forget stuff
4)those cardboard boxes to put all my school stuff tat i dont intend to throw and tat needs to be put aside
5)mounting tape
6)pencils
7)hard contact lens solution, cleanser and disinfectant solution
8)toothbrush (in case you're wondering i change toothbrush every 1-2mnths or so =P)
9)my sis's birthday present
10) oh yea the CD i accidentally broke
11)time to get new socks too
12)stock up on night snacks

man i cant afford all of this... estimated amount tat i need would be $70 and my pocket money is like half of that and this amount doesnt include my daily meals!!! I need to work something out here.... dumdidumdidum.... i guess i have to work this out somehow...

anyways next sunday the fund raising peeps are gonna bake at my house since my place has a larger oven then zaid's hehe... gonna bake cookies!
all proceeds will go towards the proposed camp twinkle(aka camp sunshine)...
stilll keeping my fingers crossed tat the camp will go thru, but still gotta look at the other side of it, the side that it may not go thru... but have no fear, we have an alternative plan! hehe... hey afterall what's important is that we wanna do it for the children =)
anyone wanna help bake cookies? you're invited to come down and help, just let me know ya hehe...

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okie how do you define success?

i'm sure each individual has their own definitions....
Some define success as having the 5Cs, others when the PM calls you up personally to congratulate you on your whatever achievements, some when you actually get to shake hands with the most famous people on earth...

my definition of success is when i graduate from university and be able to support my familiy financially and be on my own independently. That is when i'll know i've made it. Who cares if you're famous or a top person in anything when your familiy need you more then anything else...

i think therefore i am

sounds familiar?
it should

you are who you think you wanna become. no one can make you be who you dont wanna be. Its all up to you. To become your own boss. To become a succesful lawyer, businessman, stock broker, doctor, banker, well basically anything... you can... you have the power to choose and work hard at it... its all up to you, its all in the mind... anything's possible if you just believe.

Dont be discourage by failure cause its not meant to discourage you. Mistakes are made everyday, minor ones even crucial ones but hey shite happens. But you learn from it and do better. Look at Thomas Edison, he didnt invent the light bulb within a day. He failed a few hundred time and even had folks telling him tat he was crazy. But he didnt give up and persevered and in the end had the last laugh when he finally created the light bulb.
He was quoted saying "Genius is one percent inspiration and 99 percent perspiration"

Failing never equals to a failure. A failure is when you start blaming others. An important key of a succesful person is ownership.

Its okay to try and fail and try and fail again, but, it is not okay to try and fail and fail to try again
geddit? hehe...

I learnt that there is 8 keys that a person should have to excel...

1)Interity
2)Commitment
3)Flexibility
4)Balance
5)Ownership
6)Failure Leads to success
7)Speak with good good purpose
8)"This Is It" mindset

The first four is self explanatory, if you dont know what it stands for you should go shoot yourself haha...
the next two i guess i've mentioned it before... Then the next two...

Speak with Good Purpose
simply put, if you've got nothing good to say then just keep your mouth shut. What good will come out when you bring people down with your words. It may seem nothing to some of you but words mean alot.

You know the saying that goes "stick and stones may break our bones but words will never hurt us" sound familiar? it should. Well its all bullshit.
Sure the person may not look that he was hurt but end of the day when no one's looking it acutally hurts... well if your mind you're thinking, "nah this girl is talking rubbish" and you're one of those ppl who works doubly hard to prove that what was being said was wrong etc well think again buster... you're actuallly hurt but you're just denying it and either channeling that hurt into anger or work. hah

So if you dont have construtive feedback to give, i suggest you keep quiet for your own good....

"This is It" mindset
well having this mindset helps alot cause it will help you do the things that you'll procrastinate to do. Cause realitically opportunity doesnt strike twice unless you're that lucky and so this is it, its now or never. Its about doing it or not and later regreting it.
Combine this and the power of positive thinking, pwhoar! it a damn powerful combination.

okie who thinks that they will never see me absailing down a building and hanging off the edge of a ledge three stories high??
i bet no one haha...
but hey i did it! muahaha...
the power of a positive mindset ;)

just gotta believe!
and love makes the world go round trlalala
dadumdumdidumdum tralalala

opps haha... digressing
hmm...
so yea just believe in yourself and anything's possible...
okie i think this entry is long enuff and i dont wanna bore ppl to death with my reflections on things hehe...

till nxt entry
salute =)

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.