Wednesday, September 08, 2004

I'm Bored

Honest to god I'm bored. Yes i know i have loads of sch assignments, projects and studying to do... call me crazy but i'm bored shitless now that i'm not in anything. I need to do something!

Someone suggested: go join a cca...

err sure but wat? let me list the ccas in sch...

Visual Central - i was in visual central its one of those photography society club thingys but the committee there is apparently sexist cause i was conveniently not informed of previous committee mtg and now the committee are made up of all males.. so yea i'm not gonna join tat

DramaTechy - well i dont think i'm good enough to be an actor so why embarass myself rite =P

MAG - well... lets just say it doesnt appeal to me cause i know nuts abt the malay arts let alone understand v.chim malay...

Toastmasters - err... not my cup of tea i guess... talking infront of a bunch of peeps i dont know and have no real purpose on talking in the first place? err thanks but i'll pass...

Pacemasters - well heard they were professional ushers hurhur... but first time i heard the name kinda sounds like a heart beat counting grp wahaha...

Community Service Club - okie this club is interesting cause i like helping ppl and stuff... but since sec sch i never liked the idea of it cause it sounds to me like ppl who cant decide where to go just go join this club...

Band - is it too late to pick up an instrument? hehe but i still prefer the piano tho

MusicVox - err.. no thanks...

Production crew - now tats interesting.... hmm... what excuse can i find for this? =P

okie we can just skip all the sport clubs cause i cant play sports competitively, not tat i dont want to but i cant haiz...

well seems like i have an excuse for every single thing...
gosh...

well at least i still have voices...

but then...
in a way i guess i prefer to be in something that i know i can help with, that i can help make a difference... i prefer to be in something small that i know will make a difference for a small grp of ppl then being in something big and will only affect ppl like being bitten by an ant...

this still doesnt solve my problem!!!

i miss the ol sem... even tho how bz i may be but i was doing something... i had a purpose haiz.... doing nothing but only sch work is driving me nuts....

i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something i need to do something.........

which btw i think i need to get a J O B. yes a job. i need to start supporting myself. Wonder wat job i shld get.... thst's one thing to consider, and also how to juggle my time and how i wont let it affect my sch work etcetc... and i know its advisable to not have a job while still in school but something needs to be done and i cant always rely on my mum who has a lot of things on her hands as it is...

any suggestions anyone? hmm pointless for me to ask when i know i wont get any response.... hmmz...

well we'll just see how things go...
and did i mention i was bored???

oh yea i did...

i think i must be crazy....

to be bored at a time like this...

exams is in like 3 wks!

four subjects to cram for...

azi you better get started on revision!

oh yea i need HELP for crim pro, i'm lost...
anyone can tutor me for balance day adjustment?? i think i'm lost there too...
hmmz...
knowing me i'll work it out =P unless anyone wld be so kind hearted as to help me with the above mentioned subjects =P

okie i should be off to dreamland now got a grp mtg to go to tmr hehe =P

salute =)

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind...

||:PreCiouS:||
9/08/2004 01:21:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.