Friday, September 24, 2004

man did not weave the web of life; he is merely a strand in it. whatever he does to the web, he does to himself..

nice title right? i thought so too =)
and it very much applies to me currently...
cause why?
everytime i manage to cheer myself up bad news keeps smashing in my face!!!
somehow in my heart i knew what was coming...
and somehow someway somewhat
i think its my fault

its my fault cause maybe i could have done better
one fatal mistake and that's it
no more chances
you lost azi
you're a god damn failure
you are nothing
you are not who you thought you could be...
and because of this you brought others down with you
you dissapointed your team...

okok i shall stop
that's the very negative side of me
bad karma sheesh...

on a lighter note...

didnt go to school today
my muscles and back was killing me
i donno why cause it just happens
*shrugs*
these are the few moments i wish i was normal...
anyways...

caught up on alot of tv shows and movies...

finally caught an episode of newlyweds on channel i
(i think it was the last episode)
i must say nick is the most romantic guy i've ever seen in my entire life.. honestly!!!
he is so in love with jessica and vice versa...
seriously they make a gd couple... *sighs*

watched yesterday's singapore idol on tape and okie the horror singers were really horrific... one of them spoiled 'the prayer' for me arghhh!!! but really these ppl had guts... they knew where they stood and they believe in themselves enough to still stand up, smile, perform and take with them constructive feedback...
oh and they brought back sadhli.. sadhli was the guy who withdrew from top 100 cause he had reponsibilities that was top priority that he has to fulfill as he was the eldest son and i salute him for that...
I guess that episode is somewhat to show viewers to dare to dream and not be afraid to try... hmmz...

well survivor today dolly got voted off... not surprising really.. did you see how she played the game??? her tactic was stupid no wonder she pissed of the older grp and eliza was damn smart to vote with them... the guys finally got their fire and well gotta say tat both tribes' pot are being stirred damn well... alliances are beginning to take form =)

Finally got to watch the terminal...
Gotta say that tom hanks is an excellent actor.. very moving story about what a son will go through just to finish what his late father started out to do. For those who havent caught it yet you guys should, totally recommended....

also caught myself a preview of princess diaries 2: royal engagement...
for those who really liked the first one, you'll like the 2nd one too =) well no surprises here.. the princess found her prince charming and she became queen after passing the motion of abolishing the old law of princesses having to marry first before she can become queen...
(and i begin to wonder if i'll ever find my own prince charming.. wahaha... rite.. azi dream on =P )

sigh... well...

exams is in a weeks time.. gotta start my revision soon.. veryvery soon...
maybe i'll start tomorrow.. sort out all my files and stuff....

really hope my days will start to get better...
somehow the grey clouds hanging over my head are starting to get irritating =P
haha...

salute =)

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9/24/2004 11:31:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.