Friday, September 24, 2004

Random Thoughts: Of Destiny, Faith and Believing

Maybe I should start believing in destiny.
That everything will come in their right time.
I guess i'm never meant to have whatever is it that i feel is missing
in a way i guess i should have more patience...

you know how it feels like to be left out of the loop?
when you feel like you're the odd one out
and you have no control neither any power to change it...

god put us where we are for a reason
i guess i should let go and not always be on guard
let my mind and heart take me where i should go
believe in all things beautiful
and at the same time not escape from reality...

I let my fear dictate how i view things
and i guess it needs to stop
my constant doubts are traitors
and it is time i question myself no more
if not lesser then usual...

I hope i placed my faith in a good place
and not let it dissapoint me once more...
Only time will tell...

Tell me is it wrong
to believe in a person so much
that they dont realise that their actions
are slowly killing you from the inside?

when they dont know how much you care for them
and they think you love them any lesser?

When they think you are slowly drawing away from them
when actually you're giving them space for what they wanna do?

When you put so much trust and faith in the person
that you dont even know why you're doing it
cause the person shuts you out everytime and
you dont know what your real feelings are
towards the person and vice versa?
and time and time again the person unknowingly hurts you so much
and you just dont give up, cause you keep believing in the good of the person
cause you think you know what the person is going thru?

haha.. hmm... talk abt issues...

i just hope that wherever my faith lies within i dont get gutted to often...
cause what's life without dissapointments and your heart getting shredded into pieces...
secretly i hope one day destiny will save me and
maybe all my believes arent on false grounds or false hopes...

salute

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9/24/2004 06:07:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.