How can two individuals who know each other their whole lives not know each other at all? To have lived under the same roof and not understand. To be bound by blood and ties that bind and be strangers to one another?
How can two strangers meet and fall in love? To understand each other so deeply that nothing needs to be said. When their ties are stronger even if it's only been a short period of time. When each had led seperate lives but chance upon each other by fate or in other terms destiny...
How can this two situations vary and yet its suppose to be filled with the same thing.
love, understanding, trust....
and sometimes by some wicked twist of fate this two strangers are forced apart for the greater good. What the hell is the greater good? Commitments and responsibilities... as a human, as a daughter, a son, a sister, a brother.....
What is this thing called love? Is it just some word made up by humans to cover up what they fail to describe? Is love just some gimmick to occupy our idle time?
To sacrifice ones happiness for it. To let go so that the ones you love will not get hurt, sacrificing your will, your dreams, your needs....
How do you know it is all not pretense? How do we know that reality is indeed reality and not some screwed up dimension that is designed to mislead us? What if there's no such thing as a happy ending or happiness?
I guess some people are destined to not finding love nor happiness....
i know i'm one of them
who's to say that i'll still be here blogging down my thoughts as often as i use to...
who's to say i'll still be standing right next to you somewhere down the road....
who's to say you'll still remember me once we've graduate and go on our seperate lives...
who's to say i'll still be breathing the next time you hear my name...
only god knows...
How to lie to yourself thereby to everyone else?
How to keep on smiling when you're thinking of running away?
How to keep standing back up when you're pushed back to the ground everytime?
How to remain strong when you are plunged with daggers from every side?
critics will say, sure i'm talking rubbish...
and i dont wanna sound politically correct
why be fake with your words... what's the bloody freaking use?
change your perception on me go ahead, i write what i feel, i write what i mean...
I'm sick and tired of the pretense around me. If you got something to say to me then say it. Don't bloody keep it to yourself cause you're afraid of hurting me, cause ultimately you're hurting me even more by what you dont say, and most of the time i can just see it in your eyes....
Go ahead and laugh at my face cause you have a joke among yourselves. I dont bloody care anymore.
Stop trying to be sweet and nice to me cause you just want something out of me. Next time just ask it, you trying to be nice is making me puke.
If what ever i just said struck a chord on you, ask yourself why?
cause i never did mentioned any names...
salute
