Tuesday, October 19, 2004

At least someone cared...
a gal gotta take what she can get rite? haha...

apologize for the lack of updates, with good reasons of course..
well me being MIA for almost a week is because
yours truly fell extremely sick and had extremely high fever and still have yet to regain full strength... the most awful awful week of my life...

you know what people keep saying about falling sick and someone making soup or porridge for you and stuff? well its all bullshit. yep.
There wasn't even panadol at home. yippie!
I couldnt eat, everything tasted awful, plain water tasted like sewage and i was having the most painful migraine known to man bleargh...
and the worse thing was having to lie on your back in pain, shivering and hot with fever at the same time, staring at the ceiling with no one to talk to cause no one knew i was sick and no one had any reason to call me at all...
my life is so perfect.... whoopeedoo!

Only went to the doctor on the third day when i thought the fever had subside but only found out that it was still high at 38.9C.... So now i think the fever has finally subside but i still get tired easily, especially in terms of the heart, and water still taste like seweage bleargh... i think i just got myself thinner... gee... just what i need...

Somehow as i was going through this dad keep going through my mind.. i'm not sure why... its those few minutes of his life that really kept bugging me...
How he was surrounded by strangers who was trying to keep him alive, how he must have felt, not being able to see his family for the last time... To be in a cold air-conditioned place, on a cold bed, everything feeling so cold and slipping into oblivion....

no wonder i'm kinda afraid of hospitals... The last time i was brought there i actually convinced the doctor to release me even though i know i wasnt ok... hmmz...

Anyways very tired now....
To all year 3s starting their SIP tomorrow.. All The Best! Nothing to worry about its just realitiy... =)

salute...

||:PreCiouS:||
10/19/2004 11:37:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.