Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Being sick gets sickening for awhile... its 2.15am and i'm bored...
oh yea before i forget.... yesterday was naddy's birthday

Happy 18th Birthday Gal!

Best wishes and all the best in your future endeavours! God bless!

alritez.. hmm... gonna be in school in a few hours, helping out with a law workshop thingy for secondary school kids... yep thought i should help out and do something to get some fresh air rather then rot at home waiting for my strength to come back bleargh...

my maternal side of the family had a family gathering yestrday to break fast together but i didnt attend cause i was still feeling sick, but apparently mojojo struck again... in case you're wondering who is mojojo, no its not that cartoon character, its a nickname my siblings gave to a certain uncle we dislike...(we have a knack of giving nicknames to peeps we dislike haha...) the thing about family gatherings, one of my siblings always get targeted on and mojojo always have something idiotic to say bleargh... why cant we all just get along like normal family do... well that is if normal families do get along.. if they dont then my family would be called normal which i would reckon is strange cause families are suppose to support one another not bring each other down... hmmz...

anyways moi still have yet to get a job, which i really need seriously cause i'm currently running on a deficit believe it or not haiz...

speaking of jobs, wondering how the year 3s are coping with their SIPs, it all depends on who they are attached to i guess, kinda reminded me when i went for my attachment in ITE, well back then it wasnt a compulsary thing, we actually voluntereed to go for attachment, but hey its all for the job experience...

i was back then attached to NUS, Dept of Architecture... job scope was basically processing symposium registration, invoices, credit card transactions, symposium enquiries, research material stock taking, running around office in heels which i worn out three by the way in the course of 4 weeks *bleargh*, a lot of mundane office stuff, stuff that was not in my job scope and oh yea getting screwed by my lady boss... yeap... they say women bosses are the strictest... but hey at least i learned something haha...

it would be over before you know it... well not before you get sick of the office hours.. its like routine ya know.. wake up, go to work, work your ass off, somtimes OT cause your boss gives you extra stuff to do, go home, sleep, wake up the next morning and back to work... sounds exciting doesnt it haha... i so dread working under circumstances like that ish...

my dream is to work in a carefree environment which doesnt have the mundane office hours which i believe can kill you wahaha.. and the plus points is doing something you love, if not you'll just turn into a working zombie.. yeap... but then it all depends what working industry i end up in ya know cause i still have yet to figure that part out...

and i guess i need to work that out soon cause i'm like going into my 2nd yr 2nd sem of law and have yet to find my ground...
which to say i think the system have something against me getting a freakin A!!! whywhywhy??? am i not good enough for that A?? i worked my butt off for it... bleargh... maybe its not good enough huh.. or maybe the system just hates me... argh!!!!

there i said it.. *sighs*

oh yea where i was i?

oh yea working out my future... hmmz.. yeap... so where do i see myself in 5 years time...

good question... i have no freakin idea!!!

most probably working my butt off for the family...

i donno...

i've always wanted to do something i enjoy, that i have a knack for...
but it seems that they all need qualifications that i dont have... bs... bleargh... this is the time where i hate our country's "wonderful" educational system... bah... its always "oh i'm sorry you need to have this this this to be able to be accepted in our course" "oh i'm sorry you dont have the required qualifications" yeayea why not just recruit air heads.. idiots.. apparently passion and interest is not enough... oh yea if you have big bucks under your name apparently it helps too... bleargh.... society isnt as wonderful as it seems... but when is society ever so wonderful? bleargh... we are seriously living in a hypocritical and cynical world but who cares cause once you're caught up in it you dont notice it cause you're one of them, everyone is, you, me, the whole bloody world bah...

hmmz and i just deleted a whole paragraph of what i wanted to say next but then i think it went out of context bleargh.. oh yea and i guess next alternative i can take up is to be a social worker... now i wonder what qualifications would be needed hmmz...
seriously.. why not.. a social worker cause i like helping people, especially those in need.. so why not... we'll just see lah...

anyways did i mention the new kfc tom yam chicken taste horrible??? it tastes like fish =P not saying that i dont like fish but it just tasted wrong... or maybe its just me cause a lot of things seems to taste different this past few days bleargh...

all this blogging is somehow making me thirsty haha...

oh yea btw i'm starting to miss some of my friends who are all busy with either working or the devdas production... really hope we all can catch up soon...

which reminds me... some of my ite classmate had a gathering on saturday which i was unable to attend because of family committments... and i really wish i could be there but then i found a lot of peeps cant make it and some regulars, by regulars i mean those who usually attend the gatherings, got pissed off cause a lot of ppl keep saying they miss everyone but dont attend the gathering.. and it set me thinking... they were angry cause everyone was busy and do not attend the gatherings but they dont have the right to be cause sometimes its not their fault that they have to work on that they or have other committments... i know it takes effort on each side but you dont have the right to mouth off those who really cant make it cause you are in no position to scold anyone cause you dont know their situation in the first place...

tralala.. anyways that aside... i still miss all of em' tho... everyone is soooo busy, funnily enough excluding me... i need to get a life, something that i've been keep repeating over and over haiz...
oh yea btw... wan if you're reading this... where the hell are you????? sejak ada matair member pun lupa eh hmphz.... when am i ever gonna see you?? miss you and the other guys alot.. ever since ns you guys just dissapeared ish...

and to ifah and aida... where are you girls??? you gals cant possibly be working 24/7 rite??? we need to meet up.. soon... dont tell me our next meeting is raya okay ish...

oh yea to all those who have tagged... thanks guys *muakz*!!! hehe... i guess i'm much better now hehe... feels good to blog after some time you know haha... yesyes call me crazy but hey that what makes me, me! hehe =P

alrite too thirsty to continue hah...
till then...

salute =)

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.