Monday, October 04, 2004

obviously i failed miserably...
to what you might ask

why sleeping of course!
haha...

i failed to succumb to the calling of snoozeville...
sigh...
and i have a paper in like four hours! wohoo! 0.O"

Question to myself is, why cant i bring myself to fall asleep when i want to?
This is getting tiring... i can't always be awake till the wee hours in the morning!!! something has to be done! but the question is what?

so what have i been doing to kill time? well so far i've been bloghopping, going thru my accounts notes over and over again, and made my own french fries! i'm running out of things to do....

which comes to another point.... i think i need to pick up something new! Maybe a new hobby or interest or just about anything i suppose, that does not require little or no money at all and that really intrests me....

I'm in a situation whereby i love photography but i lack the resources to pursue it, and i seriously envy those peeps who has something to do with their time, like play a sport (i.e soccer, hockey, tennis) whiich due to my medical condition its off limits (i can only play for the fun of it...sigh...), or like be in a dance troop or whatever that i am capable of doing.... sigh...

I'm getting tired of school school school, day in and day out... its like i have no life! if i'm not in school i'm at home rotting... i'm not out with any of my friends as often as i want to cause most of the time they are all busy with their own activities or if not, i just dont exist in their memory for that period of time...

maybe after the exams its time to take chances and do something new for a change! signed up for something the week after our exams are over... hopefully i did the right thing.. will tell you guys more about it once it commences *winkz*

alritez i've run out of things to talk about for now...
found this while i was bloghopping and since i'm bored why not?

1. Are you good at hiding your feelings? :
sometimes... it depends who i'm with and how emotional i am with the situation...

2. How can we tell that you're already irritated? :
the look on my face? haha.. not really sure...

3. How do you treat the person that obviously doesn't like you? :
with respect, hey what you give is what you get =)

4. What usually ruins your mood? :
depends on the situation.... but jerks really hits the spot....

5. Who do you see everyday that you wish you just wouldn't at all? :
everyday?? no one currently...

6. When was the last time that you had a good cry and a good laugh? :
really really good cry? seems like ages... good laugh? last week i think... havent been out of the house this couple of days...

7. How often do you shop for clothes? Groceries? :
Clothes - when i happen to have money...
Groceries? When i need it which is like every week? Try living with 7 peeps under one roof =P

8. Who's your long-time crush? :
long time? hmmz... no one in that list currently...

9. Someone you just had a crush on? :
just had? hmmz none...

10. Do you have something that you wish you just don't have? :
sure but its a secret.. LoL =P

11. Do you sometimes crave for something that isn't there? :
isn't where? well lets face it, its human nature to what something that you dont have....

12. Do you wish to live in a faraway land where nobody knows you? :
how far? what's the point actually, makes no difference at all....

13. Have you kissed a total stranger? :
Nope... the question is, have i ever kissed anyone before? haha...

14. What do you want to do at this very moment? :
eat brownie with ice-cream, pizza w/ extra cheese, drink a glass of cold sprite, travel to cities i wanna visit, sleep!!

15. The worst feeling? :
regret....

16. How about the best? :
to be in love and beloved? wait a minute i havent gone thru it before so i wouldnt know would i? hmm... how about being happy... plain and simple happiness... =)

17. Ever given your number to someone you dislike? :
i dont recall ever doing it...

18. Say something about/to someone that you know who reads this :
okie if i put someone's name here another will get jealous rite...
hmm.. so...
i know!
To EVERYONE reading this, thanks for taking time to reading this far! wahaha...
the bored leading the the bored i say haha..
why else would you read whatever i just answered? lol
anyways.. god bless you guys =)

i think i should try again to get some sleep or maybe might as well just stay up.... we'll see...

salute!

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10/04/2004 05:18:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.