Wednesday, October 20, 2004

When something really bad happens to you somehow you see life differently... or dont you?
I donno it must really depend on the individual doesnt it...
I was at a point when i thought i was dying and i wasnt afraid... in fact i was kind of ready... haha... call me crazy but that was what i felt...

Sure there's so much things that i still wanna do with my life, things i want to accomplish, but then i wouldnt be able to do it without god's blessing would i? So i figured if it was my time to go so let it be afterall my death wont cause so much of a problem cause afterall someone dies every single day and life pretty much moves on...

Was watching this old episode of 'anak metropolitan' they're doing a re-run of it on suria channel and there was this scene of a girl in a girls home and as i look at the home they showed and how she felt and stuff, somehow, it isnt any much different to the orphanages in singapore. The endless rules, the psychological feeling, lack of freedom etcetc... then i think about the kids... how they must feel...

well life is never fair but then god fair, he put us where we are for a reason, cause he believe we are strong enough to face whatever comes....

I'm beginning to wonder bout the kid's project i've been working on that has gone through endless planning, name changing and re-planning... which is now currently waiting for director's approval cause they have many other questions that the want answered... seriously keeping my fingers crossed but shld they reject it i may just call foul cause IT interest group held such an event before at the escape theme park... hmmz... and there's also fund raising to think about...

anyways will worry about that later, really tired now...

salute...

p.s haze, latha & priya, the outing pics i've already uploaded here

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.