Friday, November 19, 2004

Currently in campus right now waiting for the clock to strike one before i go back out into the hot sun to meet jas who is holding my thumbdrive... hmmz..

woke up this morning to find the malay newspaper, Berita Harian, being held infront my face... why? cause i was on the front page together with my other siblings.. haiz... publicity i dont need, what's the article about, go and buy yourself a copy i wont say anything here...
(i think its online too you can search it for yourself too i wont put a link here)
honestly i look awful, unrecognizable i might add nvm those who dont know me wont even recognize me on the streets, good.

anways been finding it hard to fall asleep lately, would find myself wide awake at 2 -3am in the morning, and this is definitely not helping the eyebags and dark rings around my eyes *bleargh* i'm starting to look like a panda wahaha.. or perhaps like someone just punched me in the eye hahz...

plans getting screwed up, but heck what's new, when you want something done and passionate about it, you have to bear with the other things that goes along with it...

4 more days or is it 3? (depends on how you count) till i turn 2 decades old... yes melly i'm 2 decades old bah and no it does not mean i'm old =P
nothing much to celebrate i suppose since its nothing compared to turning 21 haha... anyways what's there to celebrate just like any other day only that it happens to be the date i was born 20 years ago....

20 years... wow... how time flies... i can still picture myself back in my secondary school days... erm scrap that, all the bad memories *shudders*, maybe ITE, more recent i suppose =)
now what in those 20 years have i done that i could be proud of?
hmm maybe minor things... but maybe the most significant one is getting from ITE to poly.. but then some people might say its not a big deal... hmm...
i donno its to each his own i guess... and maybe also for me having gone thru various major operations and living with what i have.. that was a challenge itself...

i wonder how long more would i ever get to.. well.. live to actually see myself turning a certain age? Would i still be around to turn 25? 30? or at most 40? we can never be certain about these things, heck i could even be gone even before i actually turn 20 haha...
may not be a laughing matter to some but all i can do is just laugh it off.. am i scared? hell who isnt but maybe i'm not as scared as i was before... everything is in god's hands, all i can do is to take each day as it comes =)

Singapore Idol results today, i do hope Taufik would make it to the final two. An awsome singer from the start, totally have faith in him. not to mention his humbleness, totally like that =)
And Sly should leave... in dick's words he is geting "worserer and worserer" haha... and oli.. well... she is a good singer, there's no denying that but she's easily forgetable....

alrite its 1 now got to get going...

oh yea to Budak Pantai, thanks for tagging! yes i do celebrate Hari Raya but i wouldnt have missed your concert for anything, wonderful concert, totally enjoyed myself =)

mx thanks for responding, is it possible for me to borrow your software? i'm working on a photography project... get back to me when you can, thanks =)

salute

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.