Thursday, December 30, 2004

2004

people tell me that its bad luck to look at the past but then the past never goes away does it? We learn from it, we reminisce, we laugh, we cry, we regret, remembering the memories gone by, we even question our past actions and ponder on what ifs and should haves....

The year 2004. Some people would just shrug and say "oh well its another year gone by", what about you? How was your 2004?

As for me 2004 has been a learning experience. Good and bad. Happy and sad.
I learned alot about myself and i'm glad i did.
Now as i'm typing all this out i feel like i'm a totally, well not totallly totally but totally a changed person. My head is not so cramped anymore with depressing thoughts. I live each day as it comes and try to do better with whatever responsbilites i'm shouldered with =)
I realised that life isnt all that bad with a positive outlook no matter how depressing or hard it may be.

we live once. we die once. why waste what time we have in this world? why be selfish with what god has given you. Whatever you possess within you is a gift from god and it is within you for a reason.

i learn that some things are also best left to fate. Why worry about things that you shouldnt be worried about? Everything will happen in time. It may not be now but perhaps later when the time is right. Things happen for a reason and if you take time to reflect you will understand why.

Memorable events in 2004
(not in particular order)
1. Murder Game 1
2. Caregroup visits to Ms LPB's house
3. Dreadful fall after Crim Law test
4. My younger sis's OP
5. Spring cleaning @ yishun
6. Law Welcome
7. American Idol 3
8. Singapore Idol
9. Law Inc AY04/05 "Elections" or lack of it haha...
10. Finding out things that i was not suppose to find out
11. Sleepover at nad's
12. The countless overnight chalets & bbq
13. Budak Pantai's concert @ the esplanade
14. Moi birthday (when i broke down & cried)
15. TP Open House
16. US Elections
17. Post MG get-together at Mr FJ's place
18. me being brought to the ER
19. The stepping down of SM Goh and the swearing in of PM Lee
20. watching Saturday Night Fever alone @ the esplanade
21. my family appearing on the front page of BH
22. trip to cherating, kuantan
23. Black Eyed Peas Concert

well i was looking back on my past resolutions i wonder why do i even bother to set resolutions that i can seem to attain.. haha...
well instead of resolutions here's my hopes for 2005...

Hopes for 2005
(in no particular order)
1. Get the As that i've been trying to get since the start of AY03/04
2. Keep my dreams alive and not dismiss it
3. My family situation do not take a turn for the worse
4. Project Twinkle goes smoothly
5. Law Inc AY05/06 will not be as disastrous as AY04/05
6. Get a good place for SIP
7. Things will improve at the orphanage where i used to be at
8. Meet new people, make new friends
9. Occasionaly be surprised
10. Be Happy
11. Better health
12.Stay positive
13. Do more volunteer work
14. Be more focused on the things i want to achieve

yup that's it =) haha...

currently i hope that the tsunami victims affected will be okay and continue to receive the help that is needed. I know that life for them is gonna be hard, the rebuilding and healing process is gonna take time but have faith =)

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

salute

||:PreCiouS:||
12/30/2004 05:02:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.