Wednesday, December 08, 2004

I just dont understand it
i keep finding out things that leaves me speechless
what have i ever done to these people
if they dislike my company that much why even spend time with me and fake it?
Friendship
do they even know the real meaning of the word?
or it all just pretense?
nevermind i will not let myself be brought down by it, its not worth it.
i control my own life

Anyways, the new semester have started, as before new class, new subjects, new outlook on life? figured out for myself what i wanna do, what i wanna achieve, would not let myself be bogged down by trivial matters. People not happy with me? so be it. i cant control what people wanna do, say or think. As long as you respect me as a person, i'll respect you as one.

Have yet to meet the peeps in my new class but not fretting since i'm familiar with the peeps in my cohort. Just hope that i'll be able to work well with the peeps who will be in my project group. Teamwork is essential to get a good grade.

Cant wait for next week to come, that's when the school sem will go into full gear. Tutorials will start, projects will come.. actually looking forward to it, hey its work and its productive and i wont get bored haha...

oh yea before i forget, tania and ds thanks for the bdae present, i really like it hehe.. =)

I have been having wierd dreams lately and i'm not sure it means anything. I've dreamt of being killed 3 times in one night, being attacked by wolves, losing someone, being veryvery sad, etcetc... haiz... sometimes these dreams just make me tired when i wake up, so not good...

well went out with ifah and aida today, miss both of them so much. They've been slogging with work and coincidentally both were having their off days yesterday so we met up, to catch up on life, caught a movie since it was like so long since we caught a movie together and took loads of photos (will upload em' soon!)

argh my train of thoughts suddenly broke and i forgot what else i wanted to blog about.
well then you guys take care
god bless

salute

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12/08/2004 10:50:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.