Friday, December 24, 2004

its kinda funny how people dont want your help because of one reason or another, in this particular case because they want "fresh blood". Then somhow they suddenly come running back to you for your help and ask you to head it to boot.

hahaha....

i just found it amusing. utterly amusing. tsktsk...
if you know what i'm talking about good for you, if you dont well its for me to know and for you to find out.

Christmas eve. Its that time of year again when the spirit of giving and joy is spread. Actually i love this time of the year only thing is i dont celebrate it. haha.. but still that still doesnt stop me from appreciating it.

New year's coming up sooner than we think... how time flies...
here i am sitting on my bed, staring into space thinking of what i've been doing this year. sigh.
expectations, resolutions, dreams, wishes...
well i will cover on that once that time comes near but for now we'll let that rest.

My friend's getting married tomorrow. Havent seen her for quite some time now, was kinda shocked in a way when she told me that she was getting married. Somehow i dont see her as the marrying early kind, well maybe i do haha... kinda common for typical young malay couples. Well that's how i preceive it. Before i go into how bad i think this kind of marriages are and such i better stop myself and just be happy for my friend.

well somehow my mind is a blank now, which is good. Less thoughts = less stress. Emptiness of the mind. Sometimes i wonder if my life is missing something. Somehow i cant help feeling the void or somewhat emptiness i feel inside. Sure doing what i love to do, helping out peeps actually fills part of it but only for awhile.. it doesnt stay...
haha.. i don't know... i guess this season always makes me feel lonely or perhaps empty, seeing families getting together, couples bonding, friends having fun...
maybe it'll go away as i get older, we'll see...

and somehow sometimes i wish i'm more better off so that i could help more people who are less fortunate. To be able to pull resources and give some of this people hope and joy. Things that normal people take for granted. I guess i count myself lucky to be where i am right now. To have a roof over my head, to stand on my own two feet, to be alive... simple things that i can be thankful for. It doesnt take much to be thankful for but sometimes we are somehow blind to these things when we get caught up with minor things in life.

I guess i should get some sleep...

anyways, thanks Mei for the xmas gift! I really appreciate it =)

to Mr Ferlin J, Nazura, Kasey & Juliana:

Happy Birthday!
Best wishes in your future endeavours! May the new year bring you wonderful memories and experiences! God bless =)

Merry Christmas everyone!

salute

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12/24/2004 02:00:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.