Monday, January 24, 2005

Its a bloody one thirty a.m in the morning and i'm bored with a capital B.
Best thing is i have a meeting first thing in the morning which i predict is gonna be a very long day cause i need to get a lot of things settled for Saturday, the big day.

Contemplating on watching beauty and the beast on video or continue staring at the computer screen, even though i've been in front of the tv the whole day watching cartoons and movies on cable back to back. I guess i was having one of those lazy Sundays. Lazy Sundays are good, you do not need to do anything but be lazy haha...

I should be sleeping right now shouldnt i? But no, i'm sitting behind my sis's desk, using her comp, staring at unanimated objects around the room and having worrying thoughts of god knows what.

Whenever i sleep i've been having these strange dreams, and they always leave me tired whenever i wake up, either that or leaves me with a big headache. Its like my brain never stops working ya know. Its like it is going through possible senarios of different things, and at times my "running" dreams comes back. These past few weeks my dreams goes along the lines of, i'm being killed, i'm in accident having been run down by a car, being chased by ppl cause i feel suffocated with them and they not trusting me to take care of myself, me landing myself in the hospital, being in a dilemma of having to be in two places at once, running in circles, and the list of strangeness goes on....

i guess this is why i find it hard to sleep at night, either that or i always find myself staring at the ceiling, wall or wardrobe for a couple of hours.

I guess i can be classified as a certified wierdo. sigh.

Funny thing is all this dreaming leaves me with a sense of wanting to go for a real run. I wanna run for real, feel the wind running through my hair, feel a sense of freedom... haiz physically i know i cant... perhaps i'll go cycling one of these days during term break when i can find the time...

I think i'll go watch beauty and the beast now... oh yea and i wanna watch elektra again. Forget the critics, i like it =)

salute

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.