Monday, January 24, 2005

perhaps i'm blind
blind to things around me
unhappines being voiced out one at a time
am i so blind to the fact of all the unhappiness that has been surrounding me?
why wasnt i aware of the so called bad political situation? what political situation to begin with? Must everything be revolved around politics?

shite i have enough of this politic stuff. seriously

am i that bad?
maybe i'm jinxed, cant do anything properly...

i'm sorry if i havent been good enough
if you're so bloody unhappy why not say it to me in my face?
why?

perhaps its a sign for me to stop whatever i've been doing
stop whatever i'm contributing in
cause who gives a damn right?

why should i sacrifice all my time, money and effort for nothing right?
why should i care what happens to anything or anybody?
why should i give a damn about anything?

but fuck it,
i actually god damn care, thats why i do the things i do
i cant do everything alone
i know i shouldnt be using vulgarities but i'm too pissed to think of a better word to replace it

what happened to the phrase "taking the initative?"
is it dead? Is it some pretty phrase you can just stuck anywhere to make a sentence look nice?
so if you have interest i'm suppose to run to you instead? like i have nothing else to do?

oh yea i forgot i'm not doing anything wat. I'm just sitting around shaking my legs, letting everyone run around.

*argh*

before i say anything worse i shall stop here

i know some people will question why i'm posting this entry, seriously i dont care, its my blog and i'll post whatever i wanna post.

You wanted transparency? Here's your bloody transparency

feel free to hate my entry cause you wont be the only one

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1/24/2005 08:11:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.