Friday, February 04, 2005

i guess sometimes i let emotions override me.
its not the first time actually, a friend of mine once told me before that sometimes i shout at people for no apparent reason and the thing is i'm not aware of me doing that. Thats the problem with me i suppose, sometimes i'm too loud and sometimes i'm too soft and i get misunderstood. The thing is i'm trying my best to keep in check how i voice out my thoughts but somehow i feel like i'm failing. So far only one friend has the guts to tell me what i'm doing wrong, and that was a long time ago. I cant very well record every single thing i say can i? unless someone actually say something then i can be aware and try not to repeat the same mistake.
right now being misunderstood comes naturally i guess.
all i can do is apologize if i realise the mistake i've made and like i've been doing alot, keep quiet....

Free speech. sure everyone has a right to say anything they want. But what i dont get is when people want something to be changed and thats it. They want to see things differently but is any suggestion given? no
if you want something better then suggest instead of complaining.

sure some people might think its a waste of time, but how would people know what to do if you dont tell them?

when you have a passion for something, you feel defensive towards it. Same goes for everyone else. what i dont get is why is it okay for people to show their true emotions and in my case its uncalled for?
i'm just wondering...

i guess i'm gonna get a lot of crap for this entry but honestly i'm not refering to anybody in particular no offence. Its just reflections on my part. period. hey remember free speech? i have the right to post whatever i want too *winkz*

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2/04/2005 11:48:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.