Saturday, February 26, 2005

If you put your mind to it, there's nothing that you cant do!

well that's what i believe especially after today....

went for TP Sports Club's bonkers @ sentosa today,
i was a last minute replacement for darren.
Had my doubts initially because of my cough and all but i pushed myself and hey i went thru everything today, from the "running" to climbing to hitching rides on trucks and lorries haha... i made it thru it all! wohooo!
I suppose i needed that physical workout, and surprise surprise my cough is like better? haha...

Anyways the team was awesome! Candy, Marco & Yolanda, well done guys =) We were from like the last few groups to the first five? haha awesome progress and teamwork!! *claps*

oh and contrary to what i blogged before....
i'm taking part in captain's ball for the law games haha...
just couldnt pass up the chance to play lah =P
no worries i'll be okay, i know my limits, i'll stop when its time to stop =)

Took bus 10 home from harbourfront, after yolanda and marcus alighted at their stop, i noticed some changes along the route. Shows how things change in a short space of time. Noticed how yellow the grass are nowadays due to the weather, then i saw the sky turning cloudy which showed signs of coming rain... Then i thought of god, how he has the power to control everything, how things happen for a reason... and somehow i began praying to him...
I prayed for him to give me strength, i prayed that whatever he's putting me through is not all a waste, that he will allow me to continue to be strong for whatever obstacles that may come... i also prayed that whatever has been happening in my life, allow me to learn from these mistakes and somehow allow me to get used to the pain that's constantly being thrown at me... not physical pain but more of emotional pain... and then i made a promise to myself that i would not let things bring me down, that whatever happens i should carry a light heart and not entangle myself with emotions that will drain me...
somehow after all that i felt a little lighter... =)

and i have no freaking idea why i'm telling you all this haha...

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hmm candy, or was it tania who asked me this yesterday...
what do i look for in a guy?

i couldnt answer them yesterday, went about something about how height is just a number haha...

anyways i think i have an answer...
What i look for is more of character and personality rather then looks...
i want a guy who's a combination of Disney's Aladdin and King Arthur's Authur haha...
and i'm not refering to the looks department...
but i dont mind if he looks and sounds like Arthur wahaha...

anyways.. yea... but then both are fictional characters and i suppose there's no such guy in real life....
but then fictional characters are inspired by real people arent they? or else how would the authors/writers/creators come up with these characters....

but if such a guy exist...
i think he would be too good a guy for me and there's someone out there better for him...
so yea wahaha
so much for knowing what i want...

but then we will never really know what lies ahead of us and what we really want... we can list as many attibutes and qualites of a person we want to end up with but then fate always has a hand in these kind of matters and you'll never know who you'll end up with...
and possibly you'll end up with someone you'll least expect...

so yea.. i dont think i'll pine my hopes in anyone or what kind of person i would want to end up with cause i dont want an actual list to exist where i judge someone i'll end up with and compare him to a list that i have cause if you really do love someone chances are you've already accepted him for who he really is and that's they way it should be....

Why bother with details that isnt important in the long run?
looks fade so whats the point in wanting to find the perfect guy who women usually refer to as tall, dark and handsome?
For all you know 10 or 20 years down the road he will be a hunched-back, foul mouthed, ungrateful bastard and you'll wonder why you decided to end up with him in the first place...

but then who am i kidding?
looks always plays apart in first attraction... it always does...

however i'm not saying that you should go end up with someone you think has a good character or a heart of gold but then there's no chemistry...

There is no governing law/rule/code that draws the line on what is right and what is wrong in this topic... i suppose it depends on individual, how each person perceive what is the ideal and what they think is suited for them...

salute

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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.