Thursday, March 10, 2005

french speaking test is over and done with
glad to say i did just fine.. phew....

anyways today was... well... lets just say at the end of the day i wasnt feeling so good
i just felt left out, like i didnt belong...
oh well...
*shrugs*

anyways i did some thinking while i was keeping quiet
and i think contrary to what i said i dont think a relationship is something i should be considering right now cause afterall a relationship is suppose to last a lifetime and i dont think i'm capable doing that cause i dont think i'll be fair to the person. I'm not a good person to get involved with...

i cant help but be hard on myself cause i believe whatever happens is somehow my fault. Somehow that i could have done or do something more... Cause afterall we somehow control the path we choose...
Then somehow its thru what has been happening to me time and time again. Things dont happen time and time again without it meaning something.

Anyways like i said things cant be planned. Things happen for a reason at their own time... so i'll leave it to the higher power... =)

oh well i think i should stop here
i dont feel like continuing this post...

salute

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3/10/2005 09:32:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.