I should be sleeping....
but what am i doing now????
....blogging..hmmz...
just finished my french project, so right now stoning in front of my sis's laptop, listening to Hazrul Nizam's Kaulah Segalanya and sipping camomile tea haha...
today was v.exhausting, set infront of the comp in legalab from 2 till 7.30pm doing conveyancing and then trying to finish all the printing needed for french.
Plus i was cold and hungry cause i had not eaten the whole day.... when i went back home it was more french and art i suppose with all the cutting, pasting and deciding what should be placed where...
i'm so glad its done.. now its being able to wake up in time for class haha...
Bro's comp crashed today, so i lost a lot of my photos and music... hmmz... technology cant be trusted nowadays...
this always happens when i dont have a backup geez...
a part-time student approached me for help today when i was in the lab, she was doing her microsoft access project and it happened to be the same topic i did during mbs last year... found out she was taking the advance certificate in paralegal studies. She offered me a "job" for $5 an hour to teach her access, i told her i'll be happy to help her but i turned down the money.
So was i stupid to turn down the money?
some of you may say yes, but to me i couldnt accept the money lah cause to me to help teach a person doesnt require any monetary exchange. Its about helping, to me at least... *smilez*
Have you ever felt a sense of wanting to belong...
just a simple sense of belonging...
its hard to feel that at this stage of my life, to just feel contented and belong
with so many things happening
with so many things to sort out
perhaps when everything has settled and i know where i am suppose to be....
its not really true that its when you're at the end of your life that you can see if you've taken the right path or the wrong one...
it depends on how aware you are of your situation...
you never know how things are going to turn out...
i've always thought i've been selfish...
i've been selfish for alot of things... namely concerning the family
i've been selfish as not to take the path that has time and time again been laid out infront of me... and time and time again i just stared at that path and not walk down it cause i felt that i couldnt, cause i felt that it wasnt the path i should take.
Sure heck sometimes i feel guilty but sometimes the right thing to do is not always the right thing to do.. you get what i mean?
Sometimes i wonder why i even bother with somethings when what i do is unappreciated. But heck that's life. I should just be happy that i'm just being me and not be bothered by people who i should not waste my time with... or so i say....
hmmz....
aite i'm getting sleepy and plus my back is aching like hell haha...
and i do need to wake up early for class...
take care y'all
salute!
