Friday, April 08, 2005

soul searching

i wonder how it feels like to be good at something
to have passion for it and keep doing it
to be so good at it that you're so called 'gifted'
that people actually come and find you for help
or come to see you play/sing/act/work etc....

for me i dont really know what i'm good at
i tend to do so much things at one time and...
sigh...
it all just feels empty
perhaps its because i get bored with something easily
that's pretty much the downside of being able to catch on to something fast
(well in a practical sense i suck at theory...)

i believe that when doing something you should give your all or nothing at all, no slipshod work...
i love helping people
even though sometimes its not appreciated
but i suppose i'm still searching for something that is actually worthwhile
something that i have such passion towards that i dont mind doing it anytime of the day
something that at the end of the day i can get a good night sleep because i did something that mattered... something that mattered to me and to others... something that makes a difference...

for now i'll keep on searching...

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4/08/2005 01:25:00 AM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.