Saturday, May 21, 2005

apologies for the lack of updates
i've been busy working everyday
be it day shift, night shift, full shift...
been meaning to post some stuff now and then but never did find the time to.

School's starting in 3 days and i have yet to get started with my study trip article which is due on the day school semester starts.
Timetable just came out on Thursday. Not really looking forward to my new class. I just have a bad feeling abt it.... Yr1 sem2 all over again... gosh i hope not. That would really suck.

Had a class reunion last Sunday. Met up with my ITE classmates and our beloved mr chua. Had an early dinner at seoul garden. Caught up with the happenings of each others lives. The guys gonna finish NS soon. Me finishing my diploma the same time aznor finishing his NS. (he's actually one of the last to get enlisted) Talked about everyone's future plans, ups and downs of relationships were discussed, Plans for next gathering were also discussed.
I cant believe its already been 2 years since all of us graduated from ITE. Still really miss those when our class used hang out together, went to the canteen in the middle of our Word Processing class just to waste time haha...
anyways below are photos i took during our gathering...

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almost the whole gang minus the cameraman

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darling ifah and haikal

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two guys sharing a plate of meat? hmm....

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irwan, our only boy in blue who has been MIA eversince he found his other half =P

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aida and moi! =D

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final pic of the day minus alot of ppl who already went back =P

wokie it cant always be about fun fun fun right?
now there is work work work =P
okie quite frankly i'm quite exhausted and school is about to start and everything.
If i had posted this entry on Thursday i would have clearly said work sucked. Which it does at times, especially when the boss is hanging around because he has nothing better to do and simply loves to create misery for others.

I suppose at the moment i knew how kay felt. How everyone is observing you, judging you as if you incompetent. At one point of the evening i broke down for a moment. Thankfully only infront of Tania. I dont think anyone else saw me. At that moment i could have taken a break or go to the washroom like Tania suggested but i knew i couldnt. If i did those people would have won and i knew i was stronger than that. Sure after that i just didnt have the strength to smile with the heavy feeling in my heart but i didnt have a choice did i? So smile i did and i came up with a new determination. To prove to some people that i am actually good at what i do no matter what they think. As long as the guests are satisfied, then i am.

The boss and some upper management people can scrutinize me for all i care. As long as i know i'm doing my job and i'm giving my 100%.

Sure people can tell me i can easily quit. Why continue? But heck i need the job to support myself. How else can i take transport to anywhere (which includes school) and get my daily nourishment. My mum cant support me anymore.
And anyways the job aint that bad. The customers are the only people who keeps me sane... well and some of my colleagues to...
like rohaidah told me, doing this job you just gotta act like you're crazy. always smiling no matter what happens. This is where the mask and acting skills come in haha...

I had a chat with Roslan in the cab last night after closing. We were dicussing about work and well he did most of the talking. Some of the things he said actually make sense. Sometimes someone has to be the bad guy to get things going smoothly. Getting scolded by someone doesnt mean that a person hates you (which might be true in some cases) but it also means that the person actually cared enough to take the time to correct you and instead of taking it negatively, you can actually learn from it.
And there's also having the proper mindset during work. Why are we working in the first place? If you come to work just for the sake of getting a free meal and earning a few bucks, then whats the use of you working in the first place? especially in a service line? I suppose if your heart is not in the right place, coming to work will always be a dread...

wokie enough of work...
i came across these m&m pictures in conjuction with star wars
they look so cute!

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i was bloghopping and i saw that alot of female bloggers who just loves to post their photos with make up on (cause they would never want to get caught on camera without makeup) and i begin to wonder has makeup taken over natural beauty?
most importantly how can they actually feel completely comfortable with that much makeup on????haha...

anyways so i decided to mess around with my camera and took a picture of myself, freshly washed face, no make-up, no photoshop anything hurhur...

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nice?
i find it not bad myself wahaha
booyah =P

alright i got to get ready for work
finally a day off tomorrow
a much needed day off i might say

till next entry
take care
salute! =)

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5/21/2005 02:34:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.