Thursday, May 12, 2005

i need to get out of the house more
cause this headache is hurting like a bitch!
oops did i say bitch? am i allowed to say bitch? whoops i said bitch again
whoopiedo i'm getting lame bleargh
ah to hell with it =P

i need to get my ass off my bro's computer chair and clean up my messy messy room! i cant even find stuff that i need to find! argh!!
aziazi get your butt moving! school is starting soon!

went out to town by my lonesome self yesterday since everyone is busybusybusy as a bee
did some much needed shopping
and i had the worst tasting pasta EVER!!! eeks!
even i can cook better pasta
argh waste of my money!!!

speaking of which...
i need SHOES!
mainly ladies shoes (heels are optional)
why is it freaking hard to find shoes my size in Singapore?????
if there is, its usually out of stock!!

dear retailers, if it is always out of stock doesnt it usually mean something???
get more size 9 or 10 shoes!!!!

UK is no better
"oh i'm sorry that size is out of stock, but we can make an order for you which will be made available in two working weeks."
at least they are nice enough to offer me an alternative... which i kindly turned down because i was leaving the UK in four days. sigh...

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How can you care for a person so much but they keep letting you down?
time and time again
you get your hopes up and they just shatter it to pieces
the careless words which are spoken are like darts to the heart
but to them its nothing
because its all about them
it is just words
it is nothing
cause i can always take it
cause i always understand
cause i am too bloody nice for my own good
cause i am just someone who so happens to be in this course of their lives...
cause i am someone people come to find only when they need something from me...
oh yea and not forgetting
i need more stress in my life! woohoo!

awww thanks
i just feel sooo appreciated right now

i dont even know why i even care
i shouldnt should i?
cause people who love you dont hurt you do they?
gee who am i kidding...
like brilliant shakespeare once wrote...
"love is merely a madness"

perhaps this is why cynical me have never been a relationship before
if friends and family you care about and love can do this to you
what about other people?
it'll hurt 10 times harder
but thats what falling in love means i suppose
you literally fall and hurt yourself
not to mention almost everyone that i ask on their first impression of me is that i'm either hao lian or intimidating, isnt exactly helping either...
and no i'm not proud, according to ppl i'm the most nicest person they ever met
so thats another problem too, cause there's the tendency to make use of my niceness...
hmm added to everything else in my life and potential hospital bills and heartbreak of losing me to death... hmm....
thus making me one very complicated girl...

anyone need complications in their lives?
all you need is me
just give me a call
its 1800-i-need-complications-in-my-life
if that doesnt work
theres always my email addy
*winkz*

but then i dont have the heart to hurt anyone i'll fall in love with
so...
i shouldnt even try should i?

ahaha
oh well
*shurgs*

oh gosh i'm talking nonsense arent i?
somebody stop me!
rite....
=P

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5/12/2005 11:49:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.