Sunday, June 26, 2005

I dont understand some people...
you make a mistake you take responsiblity for it
not run away or turn the other way
epsecially when it concerns another

it is such a bloody turn off
especially when a man avoids responsiblity
heck dont even talk about responsiblity
avoids the person he has hurt
being shy is one thing
but avoiding a person because he does not know how to react?

maybe he is not a man yet
he still needs to grow up
oh well

anyways my tagboard is down i think
i'm getting feedback that tagging is near to impossible
no worries tho
i still have my comments link which has been there since the beginning of my blogging days which people seem not to notice hehe =P
in case you're wondering where you can tag/comment, it is at the bottom of every single entry where i sign off =)

stayed at home for the weekend
had no plans
well thats the downside of being single
so stayed at home
with my aching back not helping
i so wish this pain will go away soon
somehow my back operation seemed like a piece of cake compared to this
and i do not want to rely on painkillers for my pain...

alrite how do you actually respond when people ask you if you're ok but you're actually not?
what i do is usually give them what they wanna hear and get them off my back, that i'm ok. I appreciate the concern but will it actually make my pain go away?

There was one instance when i actually told a friend upfront that i was not ok and she reacted hurtfully. I so seemed like a bad person because i didnt smile, i was in pain and i was in a bad mood. And i suppose it struck me that sometimes telling the truth is not good, might as well fake it and say that you're ok, then the person will say ok and stop looking at you like you're some alien/monster.

I have no idea where i'm going with this but i couldnt help but think about it. To say that you're ok when you're not but its actually what people want to hear, that you're ok... argh i'm making you confused arent i?

okie no use going on and on over this
gotta think positive
aite shall go watch spiderman on tv now...

salute

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6/26/2005 07:05:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.