Friday, June 03, 2005

You know how sometimes you just had an extremly bad day and it gets worse every minute and you feel like running out of the house and just go somewhere far far away. And if you're in a situation where its already close to midnight and you cant go anywhere and you dont know what to do, whether to call someone which is a totally bad idea cause you wont know where to start and the other person might think you're just wasting their time... what do you do?

shite i knew i shouldnt have gone home early
i should have went somewhere to clear my head
maybe i just didnt want to be alone
but then what's new right?

argharghargh

maybe the whole problem is with me. I'm one messed up person who just cant make anything right.

someone once said i was an angel... sure... an angel who fell from grace. yippie doo. no doubts about that one.

my gums hurt. my back hurts. my head hurts.
practically everything hurts.
and i have work tomorrow which i wish i can not go
everyone is leaving for a better place
out of the pioneer batch its now down to me, ab, corrine and mini....
i'm already not motiviated
i get bored during shift and mgmt is screwed up....
but then me being me has this big RESPONSIBLITY issue
maybe i should break the rules
screw everything up now that its already in motion

bleah
i feel so negative today

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6/03/2005 11:12:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.