Monday, July 04, 2005

I admit i have issues
some that should have been dealt with way long ago
supressed emotions i'm full of it
and i suppose i gotta let it go
stop allowing myself to feel guilty for some things that i shouldnt in the first place
perhaps i should stop blogging altogether?
now that's a thought.
Whenever i put down what i feel
Its no longer only inside of me
sometimes it feels like i'm naked infront of the crowd
cause my words are my diary and people can just use them against me
but in a way it helps me to deal with myself
anyways
I need to find a way to block all the negativity that surrounds me
heck i'm only human
but i shall try to be better
to stop bringing myself down
to stop wallowing in selfpity
i should just let some things go and move on
easier said then done but i shall try nonetheless

to nad and kay
thanks for this evening
and thanks for listening =)

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
Took this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

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7/04/2005 09:36:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.