Sunday, July 31, 2005

I finally got started on cleaning my room
and i realised how small the whole house is...
well i came to that conclusion based on err my lack of space ehehe...
seriously
my room is as big as...
hmmm...
how bout the part of ilaw where the printer is?
yup only that part of ilaw and its bent in an L shape...
if you dont know how ilaw looks like
well... erm... just use your imagination i suppose =P
and that space is shared by me, my 19 and 11 year old sister...
and both my sisters have their own bed, wardrobe , another cupboard for their stuff and etc...
me?
i have a wardrobe which is not even big to begin with, my bed and whatever space left there is under my bed and beside it... bleah...
so most of my stuff can be found under the bed, beside the bed in a big basket, in very big plastic bags beside the bed or in the living room.... geewiz...

i wanna move out!

not that i dont like living at home

its just that...

I HAVE NO SPACE

Even my clean clothes are in baskets beside my bed

bleah

and it doesnt help that the room is messy all the time

even when i just cleaned it, the next day it would be messy again... sigh...

AND i wanna go far far away from this country

away from everything

away from responsiblities

away from this irritating heat

bleah

anyways
was reading today's papers and....

can they please STOP featuring articles on blogging???
as if its some huge phenomenon..
seriously, its getting boring and irritating....
every single 'writer' is trying to understand or explain why people blog
who the hell cares
so what if that person wants to write about their sex lives or what they did today or about their day at the market? Why is there a need to understand?
So what if singaporean bloggers are different from american bloggers?
who frigging cares?
A lot of people have different reasons why they blog, so get over it and please find a new topic to actually report on.
sheesh

Busy week this coming week
MLOCT test tomorrow
i have no idea what to study for it
i'll just wing it i suppose since its an open book test
mostly common sense anyways...

CCN on friday therefore Company Law tutorial pushed to tuesday
to my dismay....
oh well majority wins right? and i'm the minority bleah
Why do i not want it to be on tuesday is because
we start school in the morning
and by the time the actual timetable ends i'll be too saturated and sleepy
and bloody wednesdays are FREE, perfect day to have it
cause half of the class still come down to school anyways on wednesdays...
argh
just get over it azi
this coming thursday is much more worse
ish...
class starts at 8am and there will be a lecture at 6pm.... whheeee... sigh... =P

you know how i said before about wanting to go away?
well have you had one of those days that sometimes you feel like you have too much on your plate that you feel you're gonna topple over, and adding to that, you being in the middle of things that you wish wasnt happening because you dont want to choose between sides? sigh...

If only life can be so simple
like in the movies ya know
but then reel life has a knack of tying things into a neat package
happy endings
things working out in the end no matter how bad they were to begin with...
well reality is much more complicated
and it makes us who we are

here's a theory
sometimes the thing we fear most is the most worthwhile
so sometimes we gotta take that chance or opportunity
no matter how much it scares us...
be it in relationships, work or play

think about it

aite i'm done with my break and gonna go take a shower now
salute!

You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you...

||:PreCiouS:||
7/31/2005 09:51:00 PM
||||

.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.