Sunday, July 10, 2005

I was watching Oprah on cable all day and there was a few epsiodes which showed some lucky people who were getting their wildest dreams come true.

Then i started thinking of mine. What is my wildest dreams?

hmm falling in love maybe? haha right...

well does meeting with the Backstreet Boys count? Cause of all the music acts that have ever came out in the past two decades of my life, they are and always will be my no.1 favourite.

hmm but then thinking pratically, my dream is also to enter a university and not worry about my financial problems.

between the two i think i would wanna meet the BSB. Why? Because its impractical. Because it can never happen, and dreams are suppose to be something you can never get right? haha...

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Anyways since i was in the thinking mode, i began thinking of the year ahead... and it started dawning on me that 2005 should be THE year. Where things happen. My 21st Birthday, my final year in poly, maybe perhaps my firsts for alot of things to come... geez took me half the year to finally realize it huh? oh and yes finding a date for prom wouldnt hurt either *smilez*

Speaking of which, my 21st. My friends have been discussing how to celebrate it, cause it is afterall the big 21, i still dont get the key thing tho... freedom, independence blahblahblah...

okok i get it, but it aint a big deal for me cause heck i do have it already, my mum trusts me... so thats perhaps why i dont get the big hoo haas abt the key and anyways i've never really celebrated my birthday, any of em' in fact. No parties, going out to celebrate, etcetc... cause heck spending 7 years of my life in an orphanage make you miss out on alot of things haha....

so i suppose i really dont care what happens on my 21st cause i dont expect anything huge to happen, cause it never does haha... i'll just be glad to even see that day go by, cause hey life is short =)

Oh yes and i have a new medicine to pain. Laughter! It always work. Well that's my discovery this past few months. Whenever i'm down or in pain, whenever laughter feels my day i'll be feeling better, especially when i'm surrounded with my friends. I love my friends *hugs* hehe...

"why waste a lot of valuable time at guessing what someone thought of me, which might probably wrong, when i can use that time to do what i feel is right"

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7/10/2005 05:31:00 PM
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.The Writer.

I love standing in the rain, letting the feel of raindrops caress feverish skin, letting it wash away my thoughts, worries and pain. I love the feel of sand between my toes, the cool wind whispering in my ear, the soothing sound of the sea, the warmth of a hug. I love anything vintage, historical, mysterious and magical. I like to laugh, I like freedom and happiness, I like the idea of romance, being swept off my feet and happy endings. I currently have no idea where i'm going but i know i'll get where i'm suppose to be in due time. I want things i cant have, I dream of things that can never be but i'm too afraid to leave the things i'm familiar with even when i know i'm adaptable to change. I can be the person you love or hate, like or loath, admire or envy. I am not perfect,
I am just me.